Why do I self-destruct? Okay, let me explain. I have been really good. 
I have been walking for an hour everyday! (About 4 miles) 
I have given up sweet tea! 
I drive right past McD’s! 
The scales are finally moving down! (Not much but I’ll take it) 
But I am still a glut! Go figure. Look, I had the taste for rice pudding and it was on me strong, so I looked up on the internet for sugar free rice pudding recipes, went to the store got all the ingredients and made it when I got home. I used brown rice and equal. A big no-no. The rice never did get soft. I had the rice boiling in milk for about an hour, when that didn’t work I put it in the microwave for 15 minutes, that didn’t work, so I put it in the oven for 45 minutes, that didn’t work either. So I gave up. But being the glut that I am I ate a bowl of it anyway, y’all it was so crunchy! 
So I still got the craving for this rice pudding, so I stop by the store on my way home the next day and got all the real ingredients for “old fashion rice pudding” went home and made this “boss” rice pudding! It was soooo good! And I made a big pan of it that actually was mistake #1! 
I ate a big bowl before it even cooled off! 
I wanted to taste it after it cooled off, so I ate another bowl! 
The next day before I went to work I ate another bowl. 
Thought about nothing else all day at work, so as soon as I got home, I ate another bowl. 
After dinner I ate another bowl, by now it is making me sick, but I am not a quitter, so I ate another bowl! 
Y’all I actually got sick, threw up all in my bathroom, cleaned it up, brushed my teeth, still felt bad so I laid down, fell asleep, woke up and guess what I did……..ate another bowl of rice pudding!!!!! 
I need help! I kept eating it until it was all gone. That was three days later! 
WHY AM I SUCH A GLUT?!!!!!!!! 
I learned that if I get the taste for something to just go buy a serving from a restaurant because it is like I am an addict. I have no control! 
It reminded me of another time before surgery, I made a butter cream cake with homemade chocolate icing for my husband. Well I ate a slice before he came home because I just wanted to test it….you know, for poison. It was really good, so I ate another slice, (this time with a tall glass of milk). I had milk left over and no more cake, and who wants to drink plain white milk, so I got another piece of cake!!! Well, by now the cake is half gone and I can’t let my husband think I ate a half of a cake, so I ate the rest of it! Well the house still smelled like cake even though I tried to cover it up with carpet fresh, pine sol, you name it I sprayed it! So what did I do, MADE ANOTHER CAKE!!! And yes, after dinner, I ate a slice of that one too. Because my slice was smaller than my husbands he asked if that was all I was going to eat, and I said yeah because I was watching what I ate! PITYFUL! I NEED HELP!   
Have a blessed summer, pray for your girl!