Ok  I try to be a positiv e person but this damn job whooooooooooosaaaaaaaaaaa! I just want to slap the fire out of somebody everytime I ask them to do something they want to ask why and challenge me? What the fu@#? I am the mf charge nurse and it my licsence you playing with.  Sit  down or lay down bitches.Ok  I'm trying to stay because I need the insurance to pay for this surgery. But I have no peace of mind when I work there. I hate being  going I used to like but not anymore. Anyway  I feel so close to my goal I that I  don't want to quit now. Ok here my other issue.   I completed my pysch evual and nut visit with the first surgeon that I had I thought that it would do but now my case worker at Dr Spegiel office say I have to do it over whattttttttttttt  the hell  It is not even a year old I think that is total bullschit. I schedueled those for 4/10/08 but it is going to cost me $250  Gosh damnit  Plus she wanted me to get my records from my pcp and hand deliver them to her   My PCP office charges $25 for those if I get but they fax them to any MD office for free. Gas is 3.15 The office is not next door  to my house. I am a single woman on one income. Is  this bitch is crazy I told her that I will get pcp office to fax them to her .I never had a problem with them faxing anything that I needed done. The case worker says that she will only try to get records from that office twice then after that it is up to me. What the hell? I know that my input is needed but this bitch needs to do her mf job and stop being lazy. Ok rant is over. I feel better now 6 more days unitl this diet is over.

OK I went to a seminar with Dr Spegiel. He is a very nice surgeon. I like that fact that he knew what he was talking about and was honest about the surgeries. Well he told me that I am healthly enough for the bypass or the band.  I understand that I will only be able to eat  small amounts of food. But with the band I will not be able to eat bread I am not a bread fanatic but I would like to be able to eat  a little. With the bypass I will be able to eats some bread and pasta.  So I am expericning a little indecision about band vs bypass. I am staying at my current job b/c  I need the insurance to pay for it. I want to leave the job after I have it done. So that is why I am leaning towards the bypass b/c I wont have to go in for fills. I learned something interesting during the seminar. Dr Spegiel said that  the excess skin depended on genetics not the surgery.   Well I will keep praying for a answer and keep reseaching .  Month 5  of diet will be over in 13 days. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS! 

 Okay here's the story. I go to see the dietitcan with Dr. Marvin. So I lost 4 more pounds yeah! Anyway she tells me that Dr. Marvin has left Obesity Surgery Specialist. So the new dr is Dr Nouzarian. I signed the paper to transfer my care to him but after a few days I just didn't feel right.  I'm sure he is a good surgeon but he may not be right for me. Well I have a consult to see Dr Spegiel. I have heard a lot of good things about him He has done 6000 bands wowwww. Okay I will update with my final decision. 
5 months down 1 more to go. I can't believe that I'm closer to getting by band.

Well I need to blog for this month so here it is.  I went to the Dr. Marvin seminar with my band angel Michelle. It was a informative seminar. I like the fact that he has done 500 bands.I have been accepted as one of  his patients. I am now having second thoughts about which surgery band or the rny. I worried that I won't be sucessful with the band because I like sweets. I am going thru some job instability now I don't know how this is going to work out. I'm praying that the trouble will pass.  Well I went to the PCP and I lost those 10 pounds I gained.   That's is good news I don't feel any different though. Hopefully next month I will lose a little more. I hope that I lose a little more but  not enough that I wont be able to get approved for insurance.