Its been six months since I did the best thing in the world and saved my own life.  I am down alittle over 150 lbs..I feel great..I can eat anything I want just much less.  I played volleyball yesterday with my kids..I never would have had the energy to do this still weighing 392.  I feel great. 

I am 4 months out and I am down 112 lbs so far.  I feel wonderful--I get around so much easier..I can wipe my own butt with ease..LOL, I can bend over a tie my shoes with out gaspiing for air.  there are soo many things I can do easier that  being so fat and grotesque I couldnt do.  I still have about 90 lbs to go --and even then who knows I may want to lose more..I would look like  a super model at 150..LOL but all in due time.  I really dont have time to post alot on this...But I will get back you in a month or so. 

Today was a really big great joyous day for me.  For one....I am finally under 300 lbs...I am sooooo happy.  I also had a pretty big week this week having lost 11 lbs.  I was in shock I guess I just cant tell that I am losing anymore.  I look in the mirror and I still see me as the same...I have heard this is normal.  Anyway..I know the scales dont lie..It said 292 so I am down 104 lbs...YAY..

     There are days when I want to eat..I know its head hunger..but I do feel like I lost my best friend and that is something that I may mourn the rest of my life..but I am dealing with it the best way I can.  I try to do somthing else when I feel like eating.  I do have days when I am cooking my faves for the family and I just want to gobble it up..for instance, I love chicken spagetti...i made it the other day and it tasted soooo goood and yummy and I just wanted to take a giant bowl with me to the couch and sit there and eat till I am miserable like i used to do..but i could only eat a tiny portion.  My tummy was satisfied but my brain was not...I was slightly pissed..but then the scale makes me happy...its a trade off.  taking such drastic measures to reduce my weight was a life saving decision other wise I could be well over 400 lbs by now.  I have 3 daughters that I have to be around to raise...I was starting to have weight related issues...heavy breathing..not being able to properly cleanse my self..its just terrible what being so obese does to you.  I felt like I was always talked about..I have a very outgoing personality...becuz I had to...thats all I had going for me being so obese.  I used to hear all the time...OH YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL IF YOU COULD JUST LOSE SOME WEIGHT...WELL SCREW ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO ONLY LOOKED AT MY APPEARANCE..I AM LOSING THE WEIGHT AND I AM BEAUTIFUL.  I am far from being at my goal or where I want to be.  I have plenty more work ahead of me...i still have 100 more lbs to lose and i need to start excercising which is like pulling teeth to get done...i'm not getting it done and its showing..i have bat wings and really jiggly legs...i know my body wont be perfect even when i am at my goal weight but i want to do all that i can to not need all that plastic surgery.  some plastics yes...but I havent even gave excercise a decent shot...so NOTE TO SELF--------------------------------START AN EXCERCISE PROGRAM THAT INCLUDES WEIGHT TRAINING......

I just wanted to update everyone. As of Feb 29 I was sleeved.   I will say that the worst I have felt was definitely the first 24 hours after the surgery.  Other than that, I feel great!  I don't even feel like i just had major abdominal surgery.  And the best part is...I am not even hungry.  Dr. Alvarez was great....AWESOME.  He definitely outlived his expectations.  He is a warm, caring, sincere, man who I would recommend to ANYONE wishing to have bariatric surgery.  I havent been on a scale yet cause I am aftraid that with all the fluid they pumped into me in recovery it might say I have gained weight.  But I feel good and I have tons of energy.  I think maybe next week I will get on the scale.  Stay tuned for updates..And for those of you still sitting on the fence waiting and seeing if you want to have the sleeve.  I say go for it.  You will not regret it.  I have a long long way to go..but I KNOW I will get there for sure now.