I cant believe I am so close to my surgery date! I feel like I have waited for this day for so long. I have done everything that was asked of me with a smile! I did not cheat (although I wanted too...lol) and my husband says he is so impressed with how strong willed I am with this. Amazing that I found will power. I pushed myself through a very difficult 2 wk liquid diet! I lost 20lbs so far. I cant wait to weigh in before my surgery and watch the numbers drop and know that I will NEVER SEE NUMBERS THAT HIGH ON A SCALE FOR ME AGAIN!!!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Lets Say It Together...PROTEIN

  Turns out you need protein for a lot of stuff. This is the staple of this process. You need protein to help you feel full and not so tired. There are also lots of other reasons for the protein that I am aware of but these are the 2 I have been struggling with these past couple of days. I could not figure out why I was so tired and all of the sudden starting to feel very hungry. Turns out I am not getting enough protein in my daily diet. Here I thought I had it all figured out, but when you work 2 jobs and are on the go almost all day and forget to grab a protein drink or "food" (meaning Jello) for later you really cant get in all the protein you need. I worry this will be a bigger struggle for me after I have my new stomach. Hopefully I will have all the time I need to figure this out.

5 more days left!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Im Halfway There!

  Officially one more week and I will be going under the knife! I have lost 12lbs since my weigh in with the Dr and I feel good!
I had a break down the other day because a person can only handle so much jello and protien drink before they start to go mad! I wanted Tuna fish with lemon juice. No idea why, I just wanted it! I wanted it so bad I probably would have killed someone to get it! I had to talk myself off the ledge so to speak with that one. Thanks to the help of my BFF/Husband I managed to get through it. Im almost there.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Questions and Answers

  I discovered today people treat you differently once they hear you are having WLS. People have very strong opinions on the subject. Some will say "Congratulations!" and smile and say "I know you can do this" and "thats so great, you are gonna feel so much better". Others say "oh" and "why" and "huh". Then they look at you like you have 2 heads. You can see it in their eyes they think your weak or that its somehow wrong that you would consider a surgery like this.

This is probably the hardest thing I will do in my life! I will have to relearn everything I was taught about food. I know that without the help from this surgery I will not have long term success with weight loss.

I was asked today why is it that if I can do a liquid diet for 2wks and lose this weight on my own how come I am going through with this surgery. If I have enough will power to not eat for 2wks, why couldnt I have enough will power to not eat as much. My answer...., If someone offered you a million bucks to eat only hot dogs for 2 weeks every hour on the hour, would you do it? If you knew at the end of those 2 weeks of eating hot dogs you would be a millionare you could do it. I know what my end result will be. I know why I am doing this.