So today is my 1st year bandiversary!   I feel so good though i have a long way to go.   every day i get leaner and stronger and faster, sort of bionic actually, LOL (not).

I'm so glad I did this.  No turning back, except i have to stop with the ice cream.  I would have lost it all by now - if not for that!

good luck to all my friends here at OH.

Thank you,
Nilsa

I went for my second fill on October 9.   Dr. Fielding did not want to give me the fill because he said that he didn't see it was necessary because I lost 7 lbs since September 18 (first fill).  I insisted on a small fill.  He gave me just 1 cc.  

I guess I could stand to feel better about the loss but the truth is I could have done better.

I found out that chicken nuggets are a no no now.  Today I got miserably stuck on 1 chicken nugget.     This fill is restrictive.     Funny; one thing that I was expecting in terms of having this surgery was restrictiveness by way of feeling full.   I'm told that restriction is that which i've just described.... where you get stuck on things.   Maybe i'm wrong - not sure yet.

I'm down to 219 now.  From 239 when I started the liquid pre op diet.

I'm glad about it; but I need to get the exercise in and stop bitching already.  Oh yeah and I have to stop eating the occasional ice cream; though Dr. Fielding said it was fine, so long as I wasn't having an entire pint.

Until next time.

I've been feeling a little angry for a couple of days and can't put my finger on the real reason quite yet.   I'm not sure if its because I want to wake up skinny, or that my clothes are just now starting to get a little loose and I kind of feel like I should be down a size already.   Not sure about anything but I feel quite SHADY.

Whatever the reason, I have to remember minute by minute that I should not let it get to me because that could trigger some serious eating and maybe even a drink - which almost never happens because I don't ever really drink much.

I'm ready for another fill.  I'm not exactly hungry but I could eat more than what i'm supposed to and damn it, I want my restriction on point!

In addition to feeling lighter, I am lighter as of this morning because every pound counts.  I woke up and another pound was gone.   I want it to keep on going.  I am syked.  I'm a believer

This morning I ate a little oatmeal but not the entire plate.  For lunch I tried a small piece of fish, as always; and it is sad but the fish is getting hard to eat; maybe because of the way I've been cooking it.  I hope that is the reason.

I went out to a restaurant today and I ate 1 meatball with tomato sauce on it; and a little pasta (cannelloni with cheese).  The pasta is a bit scary because i felt it going down.  Didn't get stuck but it did hurt a bit going down.   Wasn't soft enough I guess.  

Anyway, I only ate one of them or 1/2 of one.

Felt pretty satisfied, so lets see what happens this week.   I have 15 lbs to loose by thanksgiving for my challenge..... god i hope i make it.