My new workout program is going really well. I can see that I'm losing inches but the #'s aren't dropping quite yet weight wise. I was able to squeeze into this dress that someone sent me...I couldn't get it past my boobs (what's left of them) last month so this is encouraging!

The 3 days a weel weight training and the 3 days a week 20 minute intense cardio has boosted my energy BIG TIME! I have 10 more weeks to see if there is a big enough change in my body to continue. I may change my routine for a week or 2 after the 12 weeks are up and then go back to it again. I'm just trying to figure out what I'm gonna change it too!

PIZZA
I had my 1st piece of pizza in over a year today. It was the Pizza Hut Pizza with Whole Wheat Crust...yummers. I only had one piece- so I was good ! Now I have to do intense Cardio to work it off...ugh!

I- yes ME, have a 36 inch waist! I remember when the tape measure didn't fit around me and I needed to estimate my waist size...very cool.

Mistakes to learn by:
Last night, I have no idea what possessed me to drink a wine cooler but I did and threw up all over the place. DUH- loaded with sugar! Ummmm...wine coolers are NOT a good idea. Stupid Rocky!

I found the book "Body for Life" at the Salvation Army for $2. It was just what I needed to get myself back on track. Their diet is WL friend (same stuff we eat) and the weight lifting guide is awesome! I needed to mix up my weight lifting work out and I absolutely LOVE the step by step instructions. The book also works on your mental well being as well as the physical- which is outstanding!

So far, I haven't dropped any weight (only been doing it for 3 days) but my energy level is through the roof and I'm sleeping better too...

I highly recommend checking out this book if you need some motivation. It worked for me!

PS- My ass is killing me! I think I'm going to be assless in another 20 pounds or so!

I can't believe I actually had someone SAY these words to me. I'm floored to say the least...let's start from the beginning.

My ex-bf is a chubby chaser. He has always expressed his concern as to how much weight I could potentially lose. Now that I'm down almost 200 lbs., things are getting interesting. From the sweet city of Chicago, my ex is trying to control me. We have talked about getting back together again many times but sinces he's THERE and I'm HERE- nothing is really coming of it. WIth that said, the conversation I had today went along the lines of- (this is the Reader's Digest Version) "I don't like women smaller than an 18 (I'm bordering on a 16)," "I hope that you don't lose anymore or else we're finished (weren't we finished when you chose to bang someone else?),"" If you get plastic surgery, they'll cut off like- 20 lbs so if you hit your goal of 145(ish), you'll actually end up being 120 which is too small for me."

..are you kidding me? Seriously? Like- I understand that people have preferences but you know me! You supposedly love me. Doesn't my health AND happiness mean ANYTHING to you?

SO I told him- "Well- we'll see where my body wants to stay. If you don't get to keep your GF at least you'll have a healthy friend."

What I should have said was- "Fuck you Dude. Love me or leave me you SANCTIMONIOUS BASTARD!" After all the hard work and sacfice I've made trying to become "normal" you're trying to undo it?" You know what? Kiss my ass! Get your act together, get a job, get yourself healthy, stop hitting the bottle and maybe- just maybe we can talk about being together REGARDLESS of my size! WHAT AN ASSHOLE!