i am so ready for the new life coming my way----aug 8th   my kids are just as excited as me they have so many things planned for us to do after wards-swimming which i love to do just wouldnt because i was embaressed of being fat ----but i will defintly make up the lost time of happiness with my children 4 of them because i know im going to not only look better but feel healthier and i can't wait---well exactly 2 weeks left i start my breathing --wow i cant believe how fast time as flown---i also have not smoked a cigg since march 30 wow~~dr evanson straight up told me they do a nicotine test and will not do the surgery if i fail the test so, i put those ciggs down and havent even smoked one although some days i had cravings but ithey went away its all in the mind i quit cold turkey i put it in my mind i started smoking on my own i can quit on my own im not wasting money for patches or pills and i did it im sooooo~~~~~PROUD~~~~`of my acomplishment it wasnt easy but it wasnt unbearable either my hubby still smokes but he smokes out side now and i love the fresh clean smell inside my home now -----im upset because i did gain 22 pounds since i quit im 252 now that means thats

 22 more pounds ive gotta lose afterwardswelp i did set some goals for myself and i have a new tattoo im going to get if i can find a spot for it seeings how im almost covered in tattoos lol  but it is the breast cancer ribbon but it is going to be for my weight loss sucsess and im going to color it in my 2 fav colors purple and orange -----my hubby is a tattooist so ive got it when ever im ready 4 it lucky me~~~~~~~and as for my goals well they are to be able to look at the tattoos i have on top of my feet seeings how they were the most ~~PAINFUL~~~ones ive gotten ever! and to be able to clip and paint my own toenails comftorblly---i love my toe nails painted but im to darn fat to bend down that long to do it and my girls are 12+11+7 and i let them paint them but its a sloppy job lol   we seem to get more polish on my skin lmao   ok untill next time im outta here~~~~alright its july 25 woooooooooho im defintly counting the days i am going start weaning myself off of my dr pepper~ that way im not quitting cold turkey and get a massive caffiene  headache in the hosp...id rather do it over a 2 week period that way i can still enjoy it for a minute then be able to let it go~~all my life 2 things i lived for were my nicotine and my caffeine welp i done let the nicotine go- now its time to work on the caffeine---ok cyall