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I felt like it was never going to happen. But I am approved! My date is hopefully going to be January 17th. Just need to confirm with my manager!

I'm soo excited. But now that I"m approved, my husband is starting to be negative. Yesterday he said "I hope you get your surgery." Today he keeps saying I think there is a better way to do it. WTH! I keep asking him to let me know if he can think of a better way, I've been dieting since I was 7, Nothing is left to try! 

OH well.. I'm still excited for me!!  He will come around after the surgery if not before!

 Has anyone else felt like they couldn’t start their pre surgery diet until they got approved? I think that having just come off Medi**** right before I started trying to get surgery might be a factor. I feel like I cant start my diet till I get a date cause every time I try I feel like it will be a never ending thing and that once I get a date I will be able to start my diet because then I will know that there is an end in sight so to say. I know I feel this way because when I have been on other “diets” I have tried sooo hard to have the weight come off soooo slowly that it felt like it would never end.   Also, I don’t know why if I can identify my feelings, I can’t work past them and just get motivated to stick to the diet?! I’m frustrated with myself. WHY CANT I JUST GET MY ACT TOGETHER? I know I need to make the changes before I have my surgery, but I just feel like since it’s been denied once already that I almost feel like what’s the point of trying? I know that’s a horrible mind set, and I am trying to work past it. I just don’t know why I can’t!   Ok, done venting…this is my first blog…I think I will continue, it’s therapeutic! haha