I am so angry because I have not lost a single pound in the last month and a half to 2 months. I was drinking those protein shakes but I am not doing that anymore because when I started drinking them is when I picked up the weight.

 My daughter had her surgery about 2 weeks ago and already wants to get rid of it. I have been trying to encourage her to not give up so quickly on everything, and even her boyfriend complained to her that she always seems to do that, so I think she is going to try to give it a real try.

My last final is Monday for math and then this semester is finally over. I am not going to school through the summer, I am going to try to work as much as possible to bank some money so that I can go to part time on both jobs in the fall, that way it won't be as hectic as it was this semester trying to work 2 full time jobs and attend College full time.  My fiance now is working at one of my jobs also, so he now has an income to help with some expenses. We are still just trying to keep afloat, with all the adjustments from his moving here. But I think things will be ok by the end of next month (hopefully).

We are still having clean up issues, but, it is getting a little bit better. We still have a long way to go with things being like they should. I am just trying to get my fiance to step up and handle business like he should, I get the impression he has never had someone that is on top of things like I am so, it bugs me when I don't see him jumping to it, and I don't want to be the only person resolving issues. This needs to be a team effort.

I miss my mom, I really don't get to see her as often as I used to, and now because my life is so busy I really don't get to talk to her as often either. I have got to do better to rectify that with her and my sisters, I love them all very much.

That is it for now.

Everything!!!!!!!!!!!!

 My daughter has been finally approved for the lap band surgery, she has her pre op appt next week to get her ready for the surgery. Now maybe she and I can get on track with this thing together. She now currently weighs what I did when I had the surgury done in December. So I am happy that she has been approved. I know that she is not happy with the weight gain that she has experience over the last 3 years or so. So maybe this will be the tool that she will need to get on track.

Maybe we will make it a competition since I have been doing so terribly maybe this will be the motivation that I need to get my own butt in gear. I actually had gained back all that I had lost and am now finally coming back down. I was as low as 279.5, and went all the way back up to 294,  now I am currently at 288 as of my fill the other day which has me at 7cc's in a 10cc band.

I keep wondering if they are going to have to over fill this sucker to really get me where I need to be to stop my fat ass from eating so much(lol). I eat more now than I ever did before getting this damn band. What is with that?

Anyway pray for me, and my daughter who is 19 by the way. The beautiful girl in the royal blue prom dress in my photo album. She is such a cutie and sweet as potato pie. I just hope this tool helps her to lose the weight she wants so that she can be a lot happier about who she is. I miss seeing her be that super funny energetic woman that I raised.

Now as far as the fiance (Chris), I took him to get his haircut the other day, and OMG!!! he looked fantastic. He had a 2nd job interview at one of my jobs the other day and this chick stopped him and was trying to pick him up, I was watching and I was tripping out because I know he was looking great. What she didn't know was I was looking at them both, while sitting in the car. I have to hurry and do something to my hair now, otherwise these women are going to be thinking "how the hell did she land him". I usually look a lot better than I have been lately, so I have to come up to scratch in order to look like I've got it going on too. LOL

 I will post a pic of us real soon.

Hey there all,

 It has been an extremely hectic few weeks for me. As I mentioned before my fiance and his 8 year old son moved in with me about a month ago from Chicago. It was a little hectic in the beginning, now it is starting to even out a bit more. The house is starting to be a bit more organized and everyone seems to be getting along fine. My fiance is still looking for work, but since he hasn't driven in over 15 years it has been up to me to take him to places to put in applications. I work 2 full time jobs and attend College full time also, so there has not been much time for getting him out to look. I was on a medical leave from work for a while when he first got here, but now I am back at both jobs so it will be more of a challenge to get him out there. I have however helped him and my 15 year old son learn to drive so hopefully within the next 2 weeks or so we will take him and my son to get a permit or a licence that way sometimes he can go and drop me off while he does some of the running that has to be done by me.

Then there is the weight issue, I have gained back every thing I lost since the beginning. I as of today weigh 289.5 lbs. I have been down to 279.4 so I was not happy with the gain. I know though that it has been my fault as I have still been eating everything under the sun. I have had very little to no restriction with my band. I am still trying to make healthier choices. I have even started taking lunches to work with me at one of my jobs because sitting at that desk gives me the munchies constantly. I have the ability to eat at my second job for $2 per night anything I want so I have been choosing healthier fare there also, such as lots of fruits, and veggies, and more grilled or baked fish and things like that. I have even started cooking more at home in order to help everyone there eat a lot healthier. I have been making protein shakes pretty often lately and me and my son love them, my fiance and his son do not drink them, they don't really seem to like them. Oh well!

I am trying to get away from eating at restaurants and I am now realizing that I need to totally eliminate bread also because it is getting stuck most of the time when I try to eat. That is the only thing that has given me any problems since having had the surgery.

I can not wait until the summer is here. I can't wait for the end of the semester, so that I can stick to working a different schedule this way I can bank as much money as I can through the summer and then when school starts back in the fall I can drop both jobs to 25 hours per week each. Then I will go to school part time in the fall and have money to live on that won't cause me to over do it. Then I can be home more with the kids and help them to be on top of the things that they need to be doing.

Keep praying for me though, I hate that I am not able to get on here more often to check on friends and all but know that you are in my prayers.