Its been 8 months since wls and I am almost at a 100lb  loss!  Life has been GREAT!  I’ve had 4 fills and they have  all been beneficial.  My Dr. says I am doing great!  I think so too.  I am sooo happy! I still have days where I want to cry because I can no longer eat certain foods…believe me, I’ve tried and its NOT worth the pain!  Im slowly starting to lose my obsessiveness with food.  I was starting to have issues with cereal because I LOVE cereal and Paul in Dallas got me hooked on HiLo Cereal. They don’t sell it down here and while I was up in Houston I bought THREE boxes and while my mom was in SA she bought me THREE more! Lol I think I have enough for the rest of the year. Dr. says its bad because of the milk and while Im not one of those that eats more than one bowl of cereal a sitting (never have been) its considered a “slider” food and he suggests limiting my cereal intake to once a week as a treat.  I agree and that is what I did.   Now I KNOW I will ALWAYS be a food addict, but the feeling for instant gratification with food is slowly disappearing.  I firmly believe it has to do with coming onto OH daily to be held accountable and because I WANT to succeed! 

While I was in the waiting room for my appt., the receptionist gave us a sheet to fill out.  It asked about our eating habits and what is a typical meal like.  It also asked if we were chewing slowly, taking small bites, waiting in between bites, etc…etc…I could hear the ladies next to me speaking to each other and both were saying “oh we have to put no on that , yes to that”…”We can’t tell him what we are really doing..” I got so sad because I thought to myself.  These ladies went through drastic measures by having wls and yes, they could lie to the Dr.’s all they wanted,,,but how was that going to hurt the Dr.’s in any way?  The only people they were lying to and hurting was THEMSELVES.

But,,,I LIE to myself too.  Yes I do.  I TELL myself I cannot eat sweets, I cannot drink sodas, I cannot have ice cream  I like to think of myself as an “RNY’er” and that I will “dump” if I eat any of  that. And hey, if that works for me and it gets me NOT to eat the bad stuff, then more power to me.  May sound crazy but oh well.

I appreciate the LONG TERM POST-OPS so much more now. I know Im still a “newbie” as it has not been a year yet, but the TMB “graduates” rock!! They have NO idea how they impact me in such inspirational ways.  And that is why its soo pre-eminent that they stick around and keep posting and letting us know how they live day to day with wls.  My Dr. said wls is FOR LIFE.  No matter if you get to goal, u’ve had plastics, ur happy,,we will ALWAYS be different. And that is what makes us unique.  Even people who lose drastic amounts of weigh w/out wls, are “different” as they have had to change their eating habits FOR LIFE too. They, like wls people, will ALWAYS have to think before they put something in their mouth.

Now Im rambling.  I may not post a lot but that’s because Im “shy” and private. Lol But I read every post on the TMB. I pray for all peeps on there and I love so many of them. When I reach the 100 mark, you WILL know about it.  Peace. Ciao!