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Finally.  I am down 5.5 lbs this week and counting!  I am thrilled.  I was stalled, plateud and grazing too much.....that is way over, i am getting this weight off.  I have about 40 or so lbs from goal....I would be happy with 30......
The days are still rough.  I miss my mom...as much as she wanted me thin to be healthy....i can almost hear her tell me :" enough losing weight now, its ok".......she just never saw me fat......what a mom.  I was so lucky.
I have a mini goal of 15 lbs before june 29 ( my cousins wedding ).....I know i can do it.....I will do it.

Who am i kidding...I can suck on cheese doodles all day and not lose weight......
Tomorrow I am cleaning up my act.....why not now? Not really sure, but tomorrow morning sounds like a plan....I am back to protein protein protein.
We went away this weekend to Universal studios and I sampled alot of things...none of them protein, but its more than that...I have had a shitty month, no excersize and eating poorly....
I am angry with myself.....I should be putting forth more effort...I should be down more weight by now......I should and I will......I am commiting to losing 10 lbs in the next week.....if i fall short of my goal, its ok....but it better be close to it...
water, protein and excersize....I owe it to me. I deserve it.
As far as other issues in my life, its a hard month, hard year.....very hard time. Mothers day is next week.....but every day is mothers day....I honor my mom everyday.....i miss her terribly.  I miss my best friend.