moonglo82
Two Months and Two Weeks Away!
Jan 15, 2012
I can't believe I'm saying this, but I can't wait to get my surgery over with, so I can move forward and see some serious results!
I know that life after surgery won't be easy. But I also know that suffering from everything that diabetes has in store for me if I don't get this weight off soon would probably be much worse.
All that's left to do now is get my passport, prepare my home for the first three weeks after surgery, when I'll be on liquids only, and get on the plane and head to Mexicali! Oh yeah, and the little thing called a low-carb diet that the doctor wants me on for ten days before the surgery.
But you know, I don't even mind that idea. Because I know it's only for ten days, I think I'll be able to manage it better than if I was trying to force myself to stay on something like that permanently. And yes, I know that after surgery we are supposed to avoid carbs anyways, but at least at some point I know that I'll be able to have some carbs again, just in much smaller amounts.
I just want to lose this weight. Sure, I'm trying to watch what I eat now, to get the ball rolling, but I would just jump on that plane tomorrow if I could. I feel like March 29th will never get here!
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I know that life after surgery won't be easy. But I also know that suffering from everything that diabetes has in store for me if I don't get this weight off soon would probably be much worse.
All that's left to do now is get my passport, prepare my home for the first three weeks after surgery, when I'll be on liquids only, and get on the plane and head to Mexicali! Oh yeah, and the little thing called a low-carb diet that the doctor wants me on for ten days before the surgery.
But you know, I don't even mind that idea. Because I know it's only for ten days, I think I'll be able to manage it better than if I was trying to force myself to stay on something like that permanently. And yes, I know that after surgery we are supposed to avoid carbs anyways, but at least at some point I know that I'll be able to have some carbs again, just in much smaller amounts.
I just want to lose this weight. Sure, I'm trying to watch what I eat now, to get the ball rolling, but I would just jump on that plane tomorrow if I could. I feel like March 29th will never get here!
245 Pounds
Jan 07, 2012
That's how much I weighed at the beginning of this week. It's also a measley 4 pounds less than I weighed a year and a half ago, when I first started Weight Watchers.
Not that WW was a bad plan. On the contrary, I lost a good 50 pounds on that plan when I stuck to it. And then life happened, I had problems at work and with my family, and I fell off the wagon. The problem is that I didn't get back on the wagon for about eight months. By then I had regained all but four pounds of what I had worked so hard to lose, and here I am.
I'm scared, because I am always scared of surgery. I hate the idea of being put under, because I'm always afraid I won't wake up. I have no reason to feel that way; I've been in two surgeries in my adult life, and did fine in both cases. It still scares me.
The only thing that scares me right now more than the surgery is not finding a way to have the surgery. As a type 2 diabetic, I don't want to die early because of blood sugar complications. As a woman about to enter her 30's who is happily married, I don't want to miss out on having a fair shot at having healthy children. I'm not a mother yet, and I'm chomping at the bit to change that... but I don't want to get pregnant as long as I run the risk of so many more complications because of my weight and my disease.
I'm learning more and more, and every day I get a little more determined to push my fears aside and do this. I owe it to myself, my husband, and hopefully our future children.
I have applied to have a VSG with Dr. Aceves in Mexico. We'll see what he says!
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Not that WW was a bad plan. On the contrary, I lost a good 50 pounds on that plan when I stuck to it. And then life happened, I had problems at work and with my family, and I fell off the wagon. The problem is that I didn't get back on the wagon for about eight months. By then I had regained all but four pounds of what I had worked so hard to lose, and here I am.
I'm scared, because I am always scared of surgery. I hate the idea of being put under, because I'm always afraid I won't wake up. I have no reason to feel that way; I've been in two surgeries in my adult life, and did fine in both cases. It still scares me.
The only thing that scares me right now more than the surgery is not finding a way to have the surgery. As a type 2 diabetic, I don't want to die early because of blood sugar complications. As a woman about to enter her 30's who is happily married, I don't want to miss out on having a fair shot at having healthy children. I'm not a mother yet, and I'm chomping at the bit to change that... but I don't want to get pregnant as long as I run the risk of so many more complications because of my weight and my disease.
I'm learning more and more, and every day I get a little more determined to push my fears aside and do this. I owe it to myself, my husband, and hopefully our future children.
I have applied to have a VSG with Dr. Aceves in Mexico. We'll see what he says!
