Just thougth I would give you an update on my issue. I really don't know if this is all related but this is when it starts. I was 2 week late (had tuble ligation11 years ago) then I finally started, was pretty heavy and crampy, stopped 5 days latter as normal for me, I started having right abdominal pains on my right side, something that has happened to me when ever I have ovulated from that side so I blew it off. Then 2 week after that I started again (it was the normal time of the month for me) was heavy and crampy again, stopped after 5 days. I continued to have the minor abdominal pains (deep feeling so of pain and sometimes burning, I have a high pain thresh hold) off and on then this weekend it started hurting (not enough to go to er) and not stopping. I was able to get a dr appointment this moring and got back a not that long ago. He did a urin sample to check for blood, there was none, he is running my normal blood work and he said since I have had that pain for a while and doesn't know the cause he is getting ct scan set up for my for upper and lower abdomin. He gave me some sample packs of something to decrease my stomach acid so we hope this might help. So for now I'm sitting here back at work waiting for that call, I hope it comes today and I can get this done before my trip.
Dr called me last night my CT scan is wed at 945.
Weight loss Obsession By Heidi
Am I truly positively obsessed with weight loss, will I ever be happy with the size I see my body in the mirror or is it true that I think the only size that is right is zero. I know I am not anorexic because I do like to eat and have no desire to look like a walking skeleton but at a loose size 8 I still feel fat, I don't see anything thin about me at 140lbs and 5'5. What size is right, what weight is right, where does it end. I feel so much better in my body now, but now the numbers on the scale possess me. I want to see 130 something but when I reach it will I want to see 120 something. Probably, then will it be 110. Ugghhh I don't know. Its scary in a way, I never thought I would feel this way and now that I am here all I see is thinner womyn and I want to be there too. Our society shows size 2 as the ideal, and anything over 10 as a plus size. Where did this crap come from, I know its all perception but realistically we are now chasing something thats nearly impossible to achieve yet I can't seem to let go of the idea of being truly thin. I guess some day soon I need to take a few pics of myself and really see how I look. Hugs Heidi
Todays society is so weight obsessed, how can we possible not think about it all the time. Our perception of what is a healthy weight (number is so scud) we see these overly thin girls on ads and we are told that this is normal and the body type we should all be. The fashion world needs to wake up and open their eyes to what a normal person should look like, I can't remember the place but I read an artical about not letting models who are two thin be in a fashion show (yea). The average size women is a 12-14 and the fashion industry says a 8-10 is a large size model . I think we get so obsessed with the number are scales say and our brains have been so messed up on what size we should be. I am going to try to go by what the BMI says (at least thats is done by the medical industry and not fashion) and be happy with a healthy one and not worry weight the number on the scale says or what size my clothes are. When I was younger there was no such thing as a zero or a size 2 in reality today those sizes are childrends 12-14 just longer and I'm an adult so why should I be wearing kids sizes. I checked your BMI out and your within a healthy normal zone (5'5 140 bmi 23.2, 130 bmi 21.6, 120 bmi 19.9 and anything lower is under weight). So as long as your stay healty and feel good what does it matter what that scale says as long as we are at a healthy BMI. When everything is said and done I want to look like a women not a kid. I hate this mind game we keep playing with ourselves .