We’ve been together through thick and thin. (Let’s be honest... mostly thick!) You have been the one who I turned to when I needed support and companionship. Your presence in my life has been unwavering. I never once had to ask you to be present; you always seemed to know when I needed you most. Happy times, sad times, stressful times... you were there at a moment’s notice.
Some of my fondest memories include you. You were at my Grandparent’s house waiting for me every Sunday. You came to every celebration – no matter how trivial. Birthdays, baptisms, and burials – you were there! I never even had to ask for you to come to my Dad’s funeral. You knew just to show up. Who on earth can say they have a friend as loyal as mine?
I have been doing some soul-searching, Old Friend, and I have decided that our relationship must change. I realize that I have been depending on you when I should have been depending on myself. I have used you as a crutch instead of facing my demons on my own. I realize that I was the one who dictated the terms of our friendship and you were just along for the ride. Through self reflection, I realize that it is time for us to part ways. Your presence in my life has started to affect my health and my relationships with others. The relationship I have with you often isolates me from my loved ones. Honestly, I am afraid to go anywhere if I think you won’t show up. I’ve even been known to hide you from others that I love because I know they couldn’t understand our connection. It doesn’t take a professional to make me understand that if one has to hide a relationship, that relationship is an unhealthy one.
I have derived great joy from you in the past but now it feels like you have a hold on me that I cannot shake. I am preoccupied with thoughts of you and I am working hard to overcome your magnetism. What once felt like comfort is now feeling like an obsession. We’ve been together nearly 40 years now so it pains me to have to do this so abruptly. It has taken decades but I now know that in order for me to flourish, I need to cut all ties with those who harm me – even if the harm is unintentional. I thank you for being there when I needed you but now it is time for me to fly solo. I will mourn your constant companionship. I will remember with fondness some of the times we shared. I will cry tears for you. I have struggled with this decision but now that it’s done, I feel relief.
Good-bye, Food. I know you’ll still remain a part of my life but I will be the one dictating the terms from now on.