- Name: Ms Shell
- Username: msladyshell
- Location: Hawthorne, CA, USA
- Member Since: 10/26/2006
- BMI: 31.1
- Post Op
- Surgery Type: VSG (11/26/07)
- Surgeon: Gary Belzberg, M.D.
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Surgeon TestimonialGary Belzberg, M.D.Prior to meeting Dr. Belzberg (of Kaiser So Cal) I had made up my mind that I wasn't going to get my VSG. Much to my surprise, he was familiar and has performed the RnY, VSG, DS & LapBand! So after that everything was wonderful. Dr. Belzberg explained all the pros and cons of each surgery from his opinion. He is very matter of fact. I enjoyed my time and look forward to my surgery 11/26/07. |
The "easy" way out...YUP 5 years and counting... on December 1, 2012 12:15 pm
Well well well so I said it WLS is by far the EASIEST way I have lost weight and maintained (for the most part). The EASIEST way I only gain 5lbs on vacation. The EASIEST way I have been able to get back on track after said vacation.
I know some of you WLS people loathe when folks says you took "the easy way out' by having surgery. But stop and think in 2012 don't most of the things you do in your daily life take the easy way? When was the last time you did NOT hop in your car and "run" to the store right up the street? How often do you wash clothes using a wash board and hang them out to dry? Look up a word using the HARDBACK of Websters Dictionary? I was on WW for YEARS on and off and I never achieved that 10% key chain. I dieted and never lost more then 30-45lbs. WW was HARD. While I don't have the history that most of you have...especially since I LOVED being fat (although I was aware how unhealthy I was), this is by FAR the easiest thing I've done to LOSE weight and so far maintain over 50% of my EXCESS weight loss.
Has EVERY aspect of WLS been easy. Well NO, but just like having a car I've run out of gas (shit gas was almost 5 bucks a gallon), I've had a blown engine, needed various repairs, but you DON'T see me walking everyday and bitching about how HARD it is owning a car...WHY...because no matter the pain of owning a car it's EASIER then the alternative of walking everywhere??
So here I sit 5 flipping YEARS out from my decision to have WLS. I had my 5 year ANNUAL (thank you for keeping up with me Kaiser) labs and check up yesterday. While I was 10lbs UP from last year, I have managed to maintain over 50% loss of my excess weight which makes me a WLS success as far as MY perception and the stats. Never in my life had I ever lost more then 45lbs total...going from my heaviest 345 to my maintenance weight of 300lbs (and this went on from age 25-37 when I finally made the decision that I needed surgical intervention.) In September 2006 I weighed 325lbs so I joined WW yet again. Hoping to get the 25lbs off and back to my 300 "maintenance" weight. My mother celebrated her 76th birthday that month. It was her LAST birthday. My mother died December 8, 2006 from obesity related illnesses. It was THAT moment that I woke up and realized I had to do something more then WW. By the time my mother died I had lost a whopping 7lbs in 3 months on WW. My research lead me to my Gastric Sleeve.
I won't bore you (if you are still reading) with all the "small" details of the last 5 years. They are available to read on my profile at your leisure...
What inspired my post was not just the 5 year anniversary of my WLS, but the fact that I just spent 10 days on vacation, eating whatever I wanted, when I wanted (my fat girl isn't DEAD she's just CONTROLLED) and YES I gained weight, approximately 6lbs, but what amazed me most...wait for it.
TODAY when I woke up it was EASY to get back on track. I did enjoy the last few days since vacation enjoying some foods here and there, but I had already resolved when I stepped on the plane 16 days ago, then when Saturday the 1st hit I would be back to my new "norm." Here I am the girl who could never lose more then 45lbs. The girl who never saw under 300lbs for 20 YEARS. The girl who LOVED her fat life eating what she wanted when she wanted. That girl who I love like no other woke up this morning made her cup of protein coffee, planned out her meals for today and is ready to get back to her NEW lifestyle.
While I struggle (almost everyday) it's EASY to make the BETTER choices. It's EASY to not have crap in my house because I know I will eat it. It's EASY to fall back in my new "habits." It's EASY to remember why I had surgery.
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Update to where are they now.... on August 13, 2012 10:28 am
When last we tuned in I was struggling and had been for a long time. What has changed...while my demons are STILL lurking around waiting, they are lying a little lower then before. I have CHANGED. I am MORE in control then I have been for awhile!!
1. The little bit doesn't hurt as we deduced that = BULLSHIT. I have been really good at saying NO. In fact I had a break through, where I once started thinking that saying no to cake, etc was PUNISHING myself (you know remember when your mom told you no to a yummy piece of something the world came CRASHING down on you) and that's how I was starting to feel. Like I was punishing myself every time I said no. So NOWWWW for the first time in a LONG time I realize that saying no is in fact LOVING myself HUGE break though!!
2. I have STOPPED eating in the car...which has kept the inside quite clean. On those RARE occassions in the last 2 weeks that I have stopped and bought something, it goes in the TRUNK until I get home =)
3. My cheat meals are still there, but they are more FAT meals and it's JUST a MEAL. I can't and won't give up my 99c Popeyes Tuesday. The cheat carb meals are dwindling...while yesterday at the store I PROMISE I wanted some cake, but I bought chili instead...
4. Bored eating, now I WANT to still but it's getting less and less
5. Ha that laying in bed is a hard one, but I think I've ONLY layed across the bed and at like 4 times in the last 3 weeks!!
I feel AMAZINGLY good about cutting down on the many "bad" habits that I had allowed to come back into myself. Also realizing that ME not anyone else ALLOWED these things to occur. It's always easy to blame our spouces, the children, the dog, our jobs, stress, weather, etc etc, but at the END of the day it's about US and our CHOICES.
Now you must follow the bad (although I'm turning that frown upside down) with the good!!
1. Mindful eating = Shut the fuck up...that shit really works!!! But what is HELPING it work is #2.
2. Eating ON a schedule and NOT deviating from THAT schedule. I still need to work on that for the weekend but 90% of the time I have been on POINT. I don't get physically hungry as I've mentioned before BUT my head hunger is a bitch and USUALLY happens ummm within 1-2 hours of my LAST meal. So the good thing is that at 9am, when I THINK I want to eat, I just tell myself, you can hold out until 10 right? And the same for 3pm, I can hold out until 4 RIGHT!!! It's been working for ME!! I still need to work on the ultimate EVENING thing but hey I think I am well on my WAY.
The scale is NOT my friend so I am thrilled that Alison is doing her weekly GOAL setting thing. I will get back in the game. I'm hoping to report at the very least a 5lb loss at the end of August but you know what...overcoming these demons is more important RIGHT NOW and that's all I can deal with stopping the HABITS that lead to my gain will help me to overcome and start the downward trend once again.
Weight August 1, 2012 = 222.2
Weight August 13, 2012 = 221.6
In other news I am currently training to complete a HALF MARATHON on October 28th. I haven't been THIS excited about LIFE in a year and 1/2 since the regain started, so here's to my future...
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Where are they now? 4 year 8 month post-op... on July 25, 2012 12:00 am
Are you a fan of those weight loss reality shows...ie The Biggest Loser, Dance your Ass Off, Celebrity Fit Club (etc etc) well I often wonder...where are they now?? Did they keep the weight off? Are they part of the 5% that are successful or the 95% that aren't? Did you ever think that JUST because you had WLS you can't won't fall into the 95% category...well if you've been around the WLS world then you know good and well you CAN eventuatlly gain the weight back. It's about changing not just your stomach, but your mind, your spirit, your triggers, your LIFE.
Here I sit before you VSG done on November 26, 2007, making this my surgery age 4 years 8 months. Wow...just putting those numbers down as I remember my mothers death almost a year before my surgery and thinking it's TIME. I can't walk in the footsteps of my dead, obesity rittled mothers tracks. Nope not me. So here are my stats:
Pre Surgery Highest Weight = 345
Date of Surgery Weight = 302.6
Lowest Weight in October 2010 = 192
Weight Regain in December 2010 = 216.6
Current Weight July 26, 2012 = 223.4
What happened in 2010?? I woke up and was TIRED. Tired of weighing my food, tired of protein first, tired of being on a diet (and FYI I don't give a rats ass if you call it a diet or "lifestyle" change because in the end, you watch what you eat). Yup folks I was TIRED. So what did I do from October until December 31st...not a dayum thing. I didn't get on the scale daily, some meals were PURE sugar, not an oz of protein. I barely was drinking my water...BUT...just as I had done years prior I made it a point to get on the scale on December 31st...to a whopping 24.6lb regain in JUST 2 months.
What has happened SINCE December 31, 2010...ALMOST every bad habit that I had pre-op is setting up shop.
1. A little bit doesn't hurt = BULLSHIT...if that was the case they would say alcoholics have a drink every now and then...here's some crack, meth, etc. Does that mean I have to be perfect? I'm learning to a HUGE degree YES. Food may not have me breaking into your house to score my next fix, or driving down the street and plowing into you, BUT it does send me on a very dark spiral of despair.
2. Eating in the car doesn't count = BULLSHIT...yeah just because I grab something and eat it in the car those 200+ calories DO count and does NOT mean when I get home and it's "dinner" time I get to eat something else.
3. Have a cheat MEAL (like I didn't read have a cheat DAY which turns into at LEAST 2 days = Moderation I've heard it even told it, but yeah I can moderate my NON trigger foods, but the shit that HELPED me get to 345lbs, ummm if I could (only talking about ME here) moderate...yeah well I know the story.
4. Bored eating/stress eating/celebratory eating/depression eating/baby shower eating/birthday eating/shit just plain old EATING is just fucking me 3 ways of Sunday. I am so tired of HAVING to eat...can't I just live off AIR??
5. Laying in bed and eating just before I go to sleep = ummm do I think I'm going to STARVE to death in the next 6-8 hours that I literally am laying on the bed eating and going to fall asleep in like 10 minutes???
NOW don't get me wrong I have MANAGED to NOT bring back quite a few of my bad habits, but the ones listed above are plaguing me...the awesome thing is that I will NOT give up.
I haven't quite figured out what WILL work but I'm still trying...maybe identifying here will help me. With that said I am trying another approah...wait for it!!
1. Mindful eating = Paying attention to WHY I am eating.
2. Eating ON a schedule and NOT deviating from THAT schedule. Food is fuel...food is fuel...FOOD IS FUEL damn it!! I need a schedule because I don't necessarily get physical hunger, but this HEAD of mine wants to eat every few seconds...wait for the full sensation to go away and fill it up again. It has got to stop, so it's time to start my schedule again.
6am-10am = Water, Protein Shake, Coffee
10am = Snack
1pm = Lunch
4pm = Snack
7pm = Dinner
I guess this is IT for this report...the plan is to come back here every month until I'm BACK in Onederland and BACK under control!
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Walk Across America = 5,048 miles!!
Here I go on ANOTHER one of my adventures although this will be a virtual one! I'm attempting SEVERAL things in 2011 which include a 5K in Shelluary (February for those NOT in the know, lol), a 10K MudRun in June, and a 1/2 Marathon in October...and along those lines I'm going to "Walk Across America". I got online and found a couple of things to help me out on my journey.
Please follow along with me
I've got my map as you can plainly see
I've got my ticker!!
Here are the miles per state!! Join me in my goal to "Walk Across America"
380 miles = California
496 miles = Nevada
644 miles = Utah
912 miles = Colorado
563 miles = Kansas
343 miles = Missouri
297 miles = Illinois
366 miles = Indiana
452 miles = Ohio & Kentucky
280 miles = West Virginia
270 miles = Maryland
45 miles = Delaware
5,048 MILES across America!!
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Today is the 1st day of the rest of your life... on August 1, 2011 7:58 am
This is what I wrote on my FB status. "Just reminding everyone that today is not only August 1st, but if you are struggling or whatevering today is also the first day of the rest of your life. You can effect a change in your life starting today, right now in this moment. Manifest your destiny...make a change.."
It's been just over a month since I came on the boards with my revalations and putting the scale down for the last 2 weeks because NO matter how good I was doing on the eating that mother fucker just wasn't moving. Well today I weighed in and you guessed it NOPE it wasn't down...the mother fucker is just NOT moving. I am BEYOND frustrated, BUT I had to STOP and take a realist look at ME and MY journey...
I am smaller then I was in 1984
From my highest I weigh 125lbs less then I did in 1995
From the date I started looking into WLS I weigh 105lbs less then I did in 2006
From my surgery date I weigh 85lbs less then I did 11/26/2007
I am 10lbs UNDER the goal weights I always invisioned as my "ideal" weight BEFORE I had WLS
I am the EXACT size I always "wanted" to be
These revelations STOPPED me dead in my tracks...I had been so focused on "regaining" that I hadn't really stopped and looked at MY truths. I've come so far and while I have more that I want to lose, but I can't get so wrapped up that I lose sight of the bigger picture...today is the first day of the rest of my life.
So what does this moment in life mean, to me? It means I'm going to FOCUS on the things that I can control.
I CAN control the scale STOPPING it's upward climb (already have)
I CAN control how MUCH I eat
I CAN control how OFTEN I eat
I CAN control WHAT I choose to eat
I CAN control WHY I choose to eat
I CAN control my EXERCISE
I CAN control how OFTEN I exercise
This is me for now...not accepting defeat but accepting the things within my control.
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If I had to write my story I would say it's always been one of living my dreams and making them a reality. I've struggled with my weight in the sense that I always wanted to be "smaller" but after I wanted to kill myself at the tender age of 13 I woke up and realized God breathed life into me for a reason. I could wallow in my own self pitty and let the people who talked down to me because of my size live my life for me. Or I could live my life for myself INSPITE of them. I choose to hold my head high and shoot for the moon. If I missed I could always say I tried. Since then I've rarely looked back. I was always the biggest girl where ever! The biggest on my high school drill team, the biggest among my friends, the biggest girl shaking my a$$ at the clubs. Whatever I wanted to do I never let me weight dictate my happiness!
If I'm so happy why am I hear you ask? I'm here because I'm happy but I'm NOT healthy! I'm here because I buried my mother in December 2006 before her time because she was in LOVE with food and it didn't love her back. Instead it killed her with it's Diabetes, High Blood Pressure, High Chlosterol, Heart Disease and underlying complications that took her from me. Everyday I eat right and exercise I just wish I could have done that while she was alive and helped her end her love affair. Everyday I eat right and exercise I know that I am truly happy and not just living in my 300lb body for spite to everyone who says I can't be happy! I'm here because I'm in love with myself and it's up to me to bend the course of my destiny and live a healthy life worthy of God and the gift of life that he bestowed upon me. I'm here to live a healthy, loving, life!
Monday June 25th, 2007
Here I am at the 1/2 way mark of my Kaiser 24 week class and feeling pretty good about the course of my life! Like I said above I'm here because I'm in love with myself and I want so much for ME. I have decided that among ALL the choice out there the VSG might just be the one for me! I am looking to have a purely restrictive surgery. My choices as I see them are the LapBand and the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy, both of which I have found people who have Kaiser and HAVE either surgeries. So in that aspect the journey continues.
Wednesday October 24, 2007
Here are the accomplishments that WILL result from my WLS and journey to a better me!
1. To be healthy (low bad cholesterol, high good cholesterol, normal blood sugar) - DONE
2. Get on any ride without worrying that I'm to fat and will fall out - DONE
3. Keep my heels on comfortably longer then 2 hours - DONE
4. Do a cart wheel and hand stand - DONE
5. Cross my legs and have my top leg lay on my other leg - DONE
6. Have a body fat measurement between 25-35%
7. Go parasailing
8. Ride the rides @ Knott's Berry Farm & Sea World - DONE
Monday November 26, 2007
My day is here. I went to Kaiser So Cal @ 10:00 for a 12:00 surgery. Everything went as smooth as a hot knife through butter. I checked in got undressed, prepped, rolled into the OR next thing I know it's about 3:30 and someone keeps telling me to breath. I of course kept saying I can't I'm in pain (barely audible). I made it to the other side and I couldn't really wrap my brain around the fact that surgery was done and I was on the other side. Me...the 300lb girl who made the world LOVE me for me a 300lb girl. Here I was on the bed having just finished WLS. It's an emotion I could never describe to anyone. In the days leading up to my surgery I cried and grieved myself, because the Michelle I knew and loved was scheduled to die on 11/26. Oh back to the surgery. It's done and I currently have 5 stapled holes in my tummy to prove it. Here's the beginning of my new chapter. My new me.
15 ~ Neck
49 ~ Breast
44 ~ Chest
52 ~ Waist
59 ~ Hips/Butt
31 1/2 ~ Lt Thigh
18 1/2 ~ Lt Calf
18 ~ Lt Arm
7 ~ Lt Wrist
10 ~ Lt Ankle
13 ~ Neck -2
36 ~ Breast -13
36 ~ Chest -8
40 ~ Waist -12
51 ~ Hips/Butt -8
26 ~ Lt Thigh -5 1/2
16 1/4 ~ Lt Calf -2 1/4
15 ~ Lt Arm -3
6 ~ Lt Wrist -1
9 1/4 ~ Lt Ankle -3/4
Measurements 07/31/12 (wow almost 4 years huh)
14 ~ Neck
40 1/2 ~ Breast (across nipple)
37 ~ Chest
42 ~ Waist
52 ~ Hips/Butt
28 ~ Lt Thigh
17 1/4 ~ Lt Calf
15 1/4 ~ Lt Arm
~ Lt Wrist
~ Lt Ankle
Measurements 07/31/12 (wow almost 4 years huh)
Weight 216.2 = -9.4
14 ~ Neck = N/C
40 1/2 ~ Breast (across nipple) = N/C
36 ~ Chest = -1
42 ~ Waist = N/C
50 1/2 ~ Hips/Butt = -1.5
27 ~ Lt Thigh = -1
18 ~ Lt Calf = +1
14 3/4 ~ Lt Arm = -1/2
6.5 ~ Lt Wrist
9.5 ~ Lt Ankle
ANTI Hair Loss Regime
I have been taking a 'ton' of vitamins to prevent hair loss since about a week before surgery. Before surgery my hair was fine and it was thin to begin with so I was afraid of losing hair. These are the vitamins I take and will continue to take as my hair, skin and nails have NEVER been stronger
Biotin 5000 mcg
Vitamin E 400 IU
Silica (horsetail) 300mg
TRACKING MY WEIGHT LOSS
Surgery 11/26/07 302.6
Week 01 12/03/07 300.4 -2.2
Week 02 12/10/07 286.6 -13.8
Week 03 12/17/07 285.4 -1.2
Week 04 12/25/07 281.4 -4.0
Week 05 12/31/07 285.4 +4.0
MONTH 1 LOST -17.2 (TOTAL -17.2)
Week 06 01/07/08 281.6 -3.8
Week 07 01/14/08 281.4 -0.4
Week 08 01/21/08 277.6 -3.6
Week 09 01/28/08 277.2 -.04
MONTH 2 LOST -8.2 (TOTAL -25.4)
Week 10 02/04/08 274.2 -3.0
Week 11 02/11/08 271.8 -2.4
Week 12 02/18/08 275.2 +3.4
Week 13 02/25/08 268.8 -6.4
MONTH 3 LOST -8.4 (TOTAL -33.8)
Week 14 03/03/08 265.6 -3.2
Week 15 03/10/08 265.6 -0.0
Week 16 03/17/08 268.6 +3.0
Week 17 03/24/08 264.0 -4.6
Week 18 03/31/08 259.4 -4.6
MONTH 4 LOST -9.4 (TOTAL -43.2)
Week 19 04/07/08 259.4 -0.0
Week 20 04/14/08 259.2 -0.2
Week 21 04/21/08 258.2 -1.0
Week 22 04/28/08 252.6 -5.6
MONTH 5 LOST -6.8 (TOTAL -50.0)
Week 23 05/05/08 255.4 +2.8
Week 24 05/12/08 255.4 -0.0
Week 25 05/19/08 249.6 -5.8
Week 26 05/26/08 249.0 -0.6
MONTH 6 LOST -3.6 (TOTAL -53.6)
Week 27 06/03/08 246.4 -2.6
Week 28 06/09/08 243.6 -3.0
Week 29 06/16/08 246.8 +3.4
Week 30 06/23/08 239.6 -7.2
Week 31 06/30/08 245.0 +5.4
MONTH 7 LOST -4.0 (TOTAL -57.6)
Week 32 07/07/08 241.6 -3.4
Week 33 07/14/08 239.2 -2.4
Week 34 07/21/08 239.0 -0.2
Week 35 07/28/08 239.6 +0.6
MONTH 8 LOST -5.4 (TOTAL -63.0)
Week 36 08/04/08 239.6 0.0
Week 37 08/11/08 235.6 -4.0
Week 38 08/18/08 235.6 0.0
Week 39 08/25/08 232.6 -3.0
MONTH 9 LOST -7.0 (TOTAL -70.0)
Week 40 09/01/08 232.6 0.0
Week 41 09/08/08 232.6 0.0
Week 42 09/15/08 229.0 -3.6
Week 43 09/22/08 229.0 0.0
Week 44 09/29/08 226.6 -2.4
MONTH 10 LOST -6.0 (TOTAL -76.0)
Week 45 10/06/08 225.0 -1.6
Week 46 10/13/08 226.6 +1.6
Week 47 10/20/08 221.0 -5.6
Week 48 10/27/08 221.0 -0.0
MONTH 11 LOST -5.6 (TOTAL -81.6)
Week 49 11/03/08 221.0 -0.0
Week 50 11/10/08 218.6 -2.4
Week 51 11/17/08 217.0 -1.6
Week 52 11/26/08 216.6 -0.4
MONTH 12 LOST -4.4 (TOTAL -86.0)
Week 58 12/31/08 213.6 -3.0
MONTH 13 LOST -3.0 (TOTAL -89.0)
Week 62 01/31/09 207.0 -6.6
MONTH 14 LOST -6.6 (TOTAL -95.6)
Week 66 02/28/09 205.0 -2.0
MONTH 15 LOST -2.0 (TOTAL -97.6)
Week 71 03/31/09 201.8 -3.2
MONTH 16 LOST -3.2 (TOTAL -100.8) 100lb LOSS!!! Now to hit 199
Week 72 04/06/09 201.8 -0.0
Week 73 04/13/09 200.8 -1.0
Week 74 04/20/09 198.8 -2.0 (<~~do you see under 200 yeah baby)
Week 75 04/27/09 196.8 -2.0
MONTH 17 LOST -5.0 (TOTAL -105.8)
Week 76 05/04/09 196.8 -0.0
Week 77 05/11/09 196.8 -0.0
Week 78 05/18/09 199.2 +2.4 =(
Week 79 05/25/09 202.4 +3.2.
MONTH 18 LOST +5.6 (TOTAL -100.2)
Maintained MY Goal Weight Between 195-205 from May 2009-October2010
Went OFF Diet TOTALLY from October 18, 2010 to Present
Going for NEW Goal Weight of 180
Starting Weight 07/02/12 223.0
Week 01 07/09/12 223.0 -0.0
Week 02 07/16/12 222.0 -1.0
Week 03 07/23/12 224.2 +2.2
Week 04 07/30/12 223.0 -2.2
JULY MONTH 01 LOST 223.0 (TOTAL -0.0)
Week 01 08/06/12 222.2 -0.8
Week 02 08/13/12 221.6 -0.6
Week 03 08/20/12 217.2 -4.4
Week 04 08/27/12 225.0 +7.8
AUGUST MONTH 02 LOST 225.0 (TOTAL +2.0)
Week 01 09/03/12 216.2 -8.8
Week 02 09/10/12 217.6 +1.4
Week 03 09/17/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 04 09/24/12 ???.? -?.?
SEPTEMBER MONTH 03 LOST ??.? (TOTAL -0.0)
Week 01 10/01/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 02 10/08/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 03 10/15/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 04 10/22/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 05 10/28/12 ???.? -?.? (Day of Half Marathon)
OCTOBER MONTH 04 LOST ??.? (TOTAL -0.0)
Week 01 11/05/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 02 11/12/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 03 11/15/12 ???.? -?.? (leave for Thailand)
Week 04 11/28/12 ???.? -?.? (return from Thailand)
NOVEMBER MONTH 05 LOST ??.? (TOTAL -0.0)
Week 01 12/03/12 ???.? -?.?
Week 02 12/10//12 ???.? -?.?
Week 03 12/17//12 ???.? -?.?
Week 04 12/24//12 ???.? -?.?
Week 05 12/31/12 ???.? -?.? (end of year)
DECEMBER MONTH 06 LOST ??.? (TOTAL -0.0)