I have had it with this losing and gaining. I eat like a bird 6 times a day and exercise is limited but I do it daily. I have a great nephew that I chase after 12 hours a day 4 times a week and that's busy busy busy for me the whole 12 hrs. tending after a 9 month old who is just starting to really crawl and get into everything. I got so frustrated that I ate a small bag of worthers candy and a small bag of chips. Wrong thing to do I know but could not get the mental images out of my head and after a mental bout with some things. I just lost it last week and all I am losing is inches and got a lot of sagging skin all over and it really bites when it starts to pinch when I roll over in bed or move a certain way. I am at 277.4 lbs. a 5 lb. loss from last month. Yeahhhhh right. Not for me cause I see this loss every 2 or 3 months and gain it back after a shameful bout or something dealing with whatever. Counseling does help with things but it does not fix things all the time. people if you have wls please follow your surgeons orders and try and stay exercising.

Since seeing my surgeon in august and him telling me to just go back to the beginning...starting over..well I tried and lost 12 lbs. right off. Some stressful things came about and wow 12 lbs. and more came back. November got down on my luck and decided to just eat healthy and exercise like walking playing with my little great nephew and cut out certain foods that I did not need. I have not weighed at home but do when I go to the drs each month. I do not look at the scales and do not want to know what I weigh anymore. It just makes things worse. I will be fat the rest of my life and any surgery or any diet pill will not make me 100 lbs. lighter. I need to have the 6 inch panni removed and financially I cannot afford to have that done even with medicare paying their part. My RA is always in full flare due to I am on no Retuxin or anything but methotrexate right now and life can be very painful sometimes. I will always be greatful for losing the 145lbs. that I lost 9 yrs. ago and gained a lot of it back, but I still want to be 190 lbs. and some day I may get there but right now I am joining a gym and hoping to keep eating healthy and slowly getting me back as I need to be. Til next time..Irish aka Ms Pisces

Found out new med makes you gain weight. Well I added on 4 lbs. Not happy with this at all. I am already depressed and pissed about the last 8 yrs. at myself. Now after gaining most of  the weight back and now without this med the problems with my neck and arm will not get better but help with the tingling nerves and pain upon trying to sleep at night. I see my WLS surgeon next week and see what I can possibly do about getting this weightloss thing going again. I need to get healthy again and soon. I was hoping to report better news and have been eating more calories than I thought. I wake up hungry and tired. I go to bed tired. Lack of exercising due to the weather and such here I can ride my stationary bike and walk only a small amount of time in the house. I cut out all my soda cravings and but started to drink coffee late nights. My pcp told me to eat more meats and cut out mostly every food item that can make a food dish. But weightloss surgery patients can't just cut out everything but protein...atleast me anyways. Meat has been a nightmare for me. I can chew it but have problems swallowing it. If I do I throw it back up or gag. I feel miserable hours after eating meat. Fish I can stomach quite well though baked. Broccoli is my favorite veggie alone without butter or anything. Protein shakes are getting to be good with the lite grape juice early mornings and late nights. 'Til next post.

February 2, 2004 was suppose to start a new life for me. It started off good and as time progressed and I got comfortable being smaller...BIG MISTAKE. Several surgeries(8) unrelated to WLS and stopped exercising as well as introducing old food habits back made me FAT again. My lowest weight after WLS was 212 (195 lbs. because I was with the flu). I am now last weigh in at my Rheumatologists 281.8. I am miserable and it is getting harder to keep my blood sugars regulated. I am afraid that I may be back on diabetic meds before long. I started trying a new diet called Paleo. After WLS I basicly warded off meats. Meats did not taste good or did not go down and or made me sick no matter which way they were/are cooked. Vienna sausages and soups as well as plenty of vegetables and fruits are what I mainly eat daily. I eat less than 900 calories a day and my RA keeps me from doing any strenuous exercising except walking with limitation. I have always had a good bit of loose skin all over. But hid it pretty well. I feel like I let myself and my surgeon down. I knew this was not a quick fix and started off my journey right. I want to start losing again and where do I start? I have not seen my surgeon in 4 years and feel ashamed to do so. But hopefully there is something that I can do to get to losing again. I do not want to be on a diet, to only fail miserably.