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How do you represent yourself?  Who are you really?  I remember years ago reading personal ads and everyone loves long walks on the beach, that always made me laugh because I guess I like long walks on the beach but I haven't been on one in about 5 years.  So how do you describe who you really are, because really most of my life is spent at work, so realistically I guess I am more analyst then anything else, my free time is spent on my photography. Basically I spend my days alone in my office working and my weekends alone stalking birds and wildlife. So who am I?  Am I fun loving? Passionate? Sexy? Funny? Or am I something totally different?  Do I even know?  Can you choose to be whoever you want to be?  Does losing weight and being a stranger in your own body make you a different person.  I never thought I had changed after I lost weight, but realistically everything has changed, I will never be that person I was before, whoever she was she is gone now.  Who am I now, well I guess that remains to be seen.  I spend the weekend at the park taking pictures.  My camera rig is big and obvious and today a lady came up to me with her young daughter and told me I just had to walk around the trail to see a billion turtles and take their picture.  I found the comment sweet and reminded me of my son at that age who I convinced to wear a turtle costume for Halloween by fibbing and telling him it was a Ninja Turtle.  He didn't know the difference at 5 years old, this little girl was about the same age, sadly when I looked into her eyes I didn't see my young son but I saw myself, a chubby little girl, she said she was going to feed the baby geese french fries and she wanted to eat some herself.  I wanted to scream NOOOOOOO, I didn't want her to eat them and I certainly didn't want the baby geese to eat them.  But I didn't because I didn't want to be mean or rude but I did go take pictures of her billion turtles.  I didn't feel good about saying nothing, but sometimes its all we can say.