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Hi wls family I know that it has been a long time since I've posted. Just wanted to update you all of my journey. It's going on seven years out for me and I'm struggling every day with old bad habits that I picked back up. However I went to a support group meeting tonight to get some support and help on how to get back on track, and I can say that I forgot how helpful the support meetings really are. I haven't been to a meeting in a long time I mean in a few years. I'm going to be posting new pic's of me soon so that I can see my progress and share with you as well. For the last two years I keep gaining the same 20 lbs I get back on track lose the 20 lbs then go back to my old eating habits and regain the 20 lbs back. I am feed up and I'm tired of being on this roller coaster ride, I'm taking a stand today and I'm going to remind myself every day that in order for me to lose the wt get to my goal wt and stay there I'll have to follow the wls plan of eating for the rest of my life. Tonight Cherish reminded us to get in the 60 grams of protein before eating the carbs, then after eating the protein eat good carbs not the garbage that we can tolerate like candy bars, potato chips, Cheetos Ice cream etc. But vegetables and fruit. She reminded us to make sure we get our liquids in every day 64 oz and try to stay away from caffeine b/c caffeine is a stimulant and it causes you to get hungry faster.  I'm to wait 90 min after eating to drink anything. I just want to share something with you. On Sat January 22, 2011 I pulled out one of my journals and wrote what I was feeling here goes! Wow!! almost seven years since wls come Aug 9Th. I can't believe what I'm dealing with and what I've been through I've gained 20 lbs since April 21, 2005 that was the day my oldest and only son was killed in a car accident and that was the month that I spiraled down hill. I found myself picking up old eating habits, eating late at night like popcorn with lots of butter, potato chips, candy etc. all the time thinking and saying to myself " I know I shouldn't be eating this food I know I should still be following the wls plan in order to continue losing the wt. and in order to get to my goal wt." I crave carbs and end up eating too many "I'm tired of battling with my mind I'm going to take it one day at a time. I'm going to follow through with getting all of my protein in and drinking all of my liquids I'm going to think PROTEIN ,PROTEIN, PROTEIN!!!" I'm getting off this roller coaster ride as of now. I'm not going to gain back the weight that I lost I'm not going backwards I'm going forward with my nutrition bible that Dr. Joyce gave me when I first started this wls journey. Sometimes I wonder and don't understand why wls patients gain some half or all of their weight back. Who am I fooling? I'm in denial b/c I know why I gained weight I STOP FOLLOWING THE WLS EATING PLAN!! I started eating the wrong kind of carbs and found it hard extremely hard to get the 60 grams of protein in. It's wired how I just thought about my son and how much I miss him, the food popped in my head I'm not hungry at all but I'm thinking about  comfort food.  

July 27,2009
Good morning today is Monday I'm sitting here eating breakfast, 2 Oscar Mayer hot dogs. Well today I'm going to pay close attention to what I'm eating. I woke up this morning at 5:15 Tamika brought Caiden my grand son to me b/c I'm the baby sitter. Any way, I start my day off by spending some time with God first. I had my first cup of Coffee with SF french Vanilla cream and equal sugar. I crave coffee throughout the day. I drank two cups of coffee before 10:00 am. I noticed that I also crave coffee with french vanilla cream after I eat as well. I was hungry around 9:30 am I fixed me 2 hot dogs no bread I was only able to eat 1 and 1/2 hot dogs I'm reminding myself to pay attention to my hunger pains as of right now I'm feeling full, I'm going to put the other half up and eat it for a snack. I'm sitting here thinking about getting my liquids in not desiring to drink at this moment Hey! that's a good thing b/c I told myself that I was going back to basics waiting to drink or sip liquids 90 min after eating. My five year anniversary for weight loss surgery is coming up Aug 9Th I have to call my surgeon Dr. Christopher Joyce office to make an appointment for my yearly physical. I'm taking my vitamins as I write in this journal. They're chewable Citrus flavor I have to take four per day. I'm going to go to the gym this evening my daughter and I have worked out a plan so that we'll both be able to go work out today. I'm going to meet her at her job when she gets off work I'll take Caiden to her b/c her job is in the path of the gym that I attend, I'll be able to go work out earlier than usual. Then she'll go to the gym closest to my house after I get done. we're going to see how this work out then I'll inform you on the progress later. I feel like my arms are getting larger and I feel as though I gained some wt in my abs too I guess that's where I[m prone to gain wt. first. I'm feeling disappointed in myself b/c I did well all week long then on the weekend ended up being a flop! I started my day off drinking coffee as usual  I ate protein for breakfast then for lunch I ate 2 slices of Home run inn Pizza. I was only going to eat the topping off but ended up eating the crust too. My husband and I was suppose to go to a gospel fest in Springfield Illinois but ended up changing our minds. We later went out to eat  at this really nice restaurant called Pappaduaex  that was all she wrote yes I took home most of my food however, I kept picking until i finished the rest of it on Sunday for dinner.

Good morning everyone  Today is July 24, 2009
I have some good news!. If you've read my last update you know I mentioned gaining 20 pounds since WLS. WELL I just stepped off of the scale and I have dropped 8 pounds!! I have 12 more pounds to go thank you Jesus!!. I am so glad that I have this tool to get me back on track. I'm going to focus on losing four pounds at a time. I do have a confession though. Yesterday I didn't stick with all protein I had a cookie. I know that I can't eat just one cookie and stop. I ate 6 cookies . Even though I didn't eat them at one time I ate them. In the past I would beat myself up about falling off but not today! I'm going to do better today and focus on what I've been through to lose this wt and continue to follow the program of eating 60 grams of protein drinking 64 ounces of liquids, exercising, and taking all of my vitamins daily. This morning I ate 2 breakfast sausage patties with a slice of cheese and mustard. I had coffee first with sf french vanilla cream and equal sugar. I'm going back to basics where I would wait 90 min after eating something before drinking. Or drink before eating. For morning snack I had 2 SF Popsicles. By the way, if you've looked at my recent photo's you've seen the new grand baby. Well I'm still trying to adjust to him b/c I'm the baby sitter I'm trying to get a routine going as far as going to the gym. My daughter went back to the gym as well. When she comes home from work I'm suppose to be ready to go to the gym however, it doesn't always work out the way I plan. Her husband work shift will change on this coming Monday then he can help out while we go to the gym. Hopefully we'll get it together soon! I'll edit this page later so that you all will know my progress for the rest of the day. Be blessed
Renee

Today I had a pretty good day. I was finally able to drink all of my liquids today 8 glasses, that's a plus for me. Next month will be 5 years since I had WLS. As time go by it gets a little harder to keep the weight off. I thank God that I can come to OH and get motivated. Last night I pulled out a journal that I have been journaling in since 2003 and was encouraged to see progress.  Even though I lost a lot of wt. I feel bad b/c I put on 20 pounds in the last year. I know that I will be able to take the weight back off by sticking to the eating plan that was given to me at the time of the surgery. I'm glad that we have this tool to keep us on track.  For breakfast I had coffee and some left over BBQ chicken strips. for dinner I had a chicken thigh. I know that I need to eat more so that I won't slow up the progress of losing wt. I feel so much better I made it to the gym tonight. I worked out for an hour and a half. Tomorrow morning I'm going to have a Isopure protein shake for breakfast I'm going to try to get in all 60 grams of protein tomorrow.