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I can't believe it - as of June 5th I had lost 102 lbs!  I feel great and have a new outlook on life and the way I am living it.

I am moving when ever I can.  Walking when I can, parking far away....I am really trying and it seems to be working.

I do cheat a little - but I try to cheat with things that aren't really bad for me.  Pretzles and popcorn...not chips, fries, and cheez-its! 

Saw Dr. yesterday and my blood work looks great and he said I am doing really well!  Yippie! NO more potassium for me! 

So to celebrate I decided to go to Old Navy and see how far away I am from wearing a XXL.  I picked out a couple shirts, some stretchy some not thinking, 'no way are these going to fit'.  I went to the dressing room and cried!  The shirts fit - so I had to buy two!  I was so excited I told the gal at the register and she squealed with excitement for me!  I am wearing one today and it is almost a little to big in the top area for work! 

Man - this is amazing!  I have lost 80 pounds since this journey began last April and you know what?  I figured out that is like carrying two of my sons around with me everywhere.

I feel so much better.  My Dr. upped my meds and people here on OH have been really helpful and understanding.  Things have kicked in and I have my energy back.  

Now - back to walking, uggggg.  I don't know if I will ever like to exercise, but people tell me if I keep doing it I will miss it if I have to stop.  Here's hopin'.

No weight loss for awhile, seem to be in that beginning stall.  But I keep getting in my H2O and my protein, so I am doing the right things, just waiting for it to come off on the scale.  Maybe I need to stop getting on it every morning.  I don't let it get me down, it's just nice to see it go down when I have mostly just seen it go up!

I also still have cravings for foods.  I really wanted onion rings (and other fried foods) the other day when DH was eating them when we went out to eat and I still crave chocolate.  I was hoping that wouldn't be the case, but I suspect that these will be life long struggles with me.  The usual suspects, french fries and chocolate.  Maybe those cravings will go away after more time, I am only a little over a month post-op.  It just feels like I have been eating meat, and meat only FOREVER!  I can't wait to eat some veggies, I have been craving them and fruit too.  So perhaps it's really that I want something other than protein - not just fried and chocolate!  That's it!

I am Manic Depressive and am on Cymbalta - but for the last week I could feel the depression creeping up again.  I ignored it, thinking it would go away, but it didn't and yesterday it hit me really hard.  I have an appointment with my PCP to do a med check and up my dosage but thought you all might have some other advice for me. 

The nurse at BMI said most RNY patients have some depression after wards, coping mechanisms gone, etc.  I am walking in the morning, but it seems that when I am done is when I start to feel really bad. 

God bless Dave, he stayed with me yesterday - I don't think I could have been alone, just to sad.  Today has been better, but I made myself get up, walk, shower, get to work.  Keeping me from just wanting to sleep all day.