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Gee, I've abandoned my blog! Better catch up with what's been going on. 

Went to see my ARNP who was actually very supportive about my having WLS, but shared my concerns about the local talent. They are a center of excellence, but the surgeon's followup, blame of the pt for lack of success, and keeping all their $$ in overseas accounts so they can't be sued...not promising. So she referred me to another surgeon. I've called 3 times. My ARNP's office has called once. They say "let me take your # and call you back." Never call back.

I really, really want to go to Dr Alvarez in Mexico because he beats out the local talent for 50 miles around in # of VSGs performed. And he works for (his long term practice and) me. With that option, I choose the date and the proceedure. US surgeons work for the insurance companies and their hospitals or group and if they can please me in the process, great.

My DDP remains leary of the surgery and of doing it in Mexico. I plan to ask her to come here and read, read, read. We have both had more than a month of feeling just sapped out. No energy. Upset tummies. No real other physical symptoms, but we both came home and just sat and stared. Both feeling better now. Didn't want to have the conversation when we were both down and out.   

I go back and forth - am I wanting Mexico because it really is the best option? Or am I just wanting an adventure and to spend  lot of $$? Am I so impatient that I won't do 6 months of supervised WL? or lazy? or afraid that the 6 month option will actually work? (or work for 7 months and make me feel bad for never managing to get closer to goal before) Surely I can argue with the insurance company to approve the surgery I want. Surely I should try - maybe they would approve it by the time I do my 6 months. AARGH. I just want to schedule and do it.