ObesityHelp

Wow...so here I sit on 10/27 and I'm getting anxious to get moving forward on this project/journey!  I am self pay so I can't do much until I walk in a check for $25,000 which hopefully I am less than a week away from doing that.  I want to get into see the nutritionist so I can find out what to expect pre-op and more importantly post-op.  I am not scared of the surgery...I'm scared to death of the emotional roller coaster that I anticipate riding afterwards.  I am a professional at "borrowing trouble".  I need to get involved in the OH community and find some friends that have "been there/done that" so I can find out what to expect from a person that has experienced the drama of it all!   

I keep thinking that I'm doing this to get healthy, to get off of the boat load of meds I'm on each day,and so that I can participate in life the way I've always wanted to...so when I achieve those...it's not like I can go ahead & undo the surgery....it's a keeper once it's done...it's just so stinkin final.  I think that is great because that is what makes it work long term as long as you cooperate...but I have such a hard time not thinking about that and wondering how I'm going to react at that point.  Wow..here I go borrowing trouble again!  I'm done rambling for now....

I am so new at this...I really have no idea how all this blogging and stuff works.  I'm a professional message board lurker...but I thought I bess become a participator since I plan on being amongst one of the troops by mid January 2008.  I will try to get some pictures up eventually... hopefully!
I went for my consult appointment 2 days ago and I have set my mind to do the surgery but I don't have a definite date set since I am a self pay and for some reason they would like some cash before they do too much...I just don't understand!   I should have a date set my Nov 1st.
In the mean time, as what appears to be normal, my doctor wants me to lose some weight before surgery for a couple reasons...to get me as healthy as possible...and to show some commitment on my part.  I thought this was a reasonable request....so that is what I will focus on while I do what has to be done to get this journey rollin'! 
I've decided that this entire process needs to be journaled...both by words and pictures...so I hope I figure out how this all works soon and I can meet some new friends to chit chat with and hopefully get some helpful advice for the challenges ahead of me. 
we shall see how it all goes...