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  • Username: NewMe2Be72
  • Location: CO, USA
  • Member Since: 8/16/2009
  • BMI: 55.5
  • Post Op
  • Surgery Type: VSG (06/26/12)
  • Surgeon: Michael A. Snyder
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be normal! To go to a store and blend in and not stick out like a sore thumb :(

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Weigh under 200 pounds

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BE ABLE TO WALK AND STAND WITHOUT BACK AND KNEE PAIN

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go out in public without being ashamed of how I look

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buy normal sized cute clothes!

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January 29, 2010
on January 29, 2010 10:16 am
Just some things that I need to 'get out'.   This is one of many days that I wish I could cut off my belly!  *no... I would never literally do that... just.. wish I could*  Once or twice a week my husband I take my son to mcdonalds.  We may get 3 happy meals, I usually eat the apples out of one of them so it feels like I am eating with everyone else and my husband and I get a coffee,  then we watch my son play on the big ole jungle gym. Why is that people think I am either blind or deaf?  I can hear whispers that they make.. I can see the disgusted look on their face.  Those things hit the very fiber of my soul... I am sorry if I disgust you.. I even had one mom... Well, my son went up to play with her son.. he is so friendly and out going.. she instantly came up to her son and said, 'lets go play over here instead'... Dont do this to my son... I'm sorry that you dont like me, but, it hurts me!  Every Thursday I take one of the people that I work with (I work with mentally handicapped adults.. teaching them things like life skills, etc)  to Walmart.  I usually push their cart for them.. they put things in their cart such as a bag of miniature candybars... or the discounted bakery, etc.  I ALWAYS get the ugly look over!!  It isnt my imagination.  Then they look in the cart..
I have never in my life.. until this past year or so... EVER felt so much like a circus freak!  I have always been overweight.. people my casually look at me.. but, for the most part, I dont think that I really stood out, the way I do now. 
My husband and I took separate cars today to mcdonalds, I met him there after work.. when I was leaving.. I couldnt get out of the parking lot before the tears started to flow!  PLEASE God, Help me to lose this weight!  I am sooooo DONE with it!  I am so done with the ugly painful looks!
Dont know if anyone reads my 'blogs' anymore the way they did before when I thought I was able to get the surgery... just... perhaps getting it out in words on this screen does help release it... just getting it off my chest...
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January 7, 2010
on January 7, 2010 12:26 pm
Wow.. been way too long since I posted in here.. so much has happened!  I have been maintaining in the low 350's.   A month ago, my dad found out he had colon cancer.  three weeks ago he went in to have a tumor removed and 5 lymph nodes removed.  All 5 have cancer in them.    He is still in the hospital, hoping that he can go home Saturday.  He needs to get strong so he can start chemo and radiation treatments.  It has been a really ROUGH month!  I am hoping that I can get back on track.  

I am dealing with what I am making for my 2 year old.. I want that instead of what I make for myself.... not journaling and not quite getting enough water in.

Please... keep my dad in your prayers... These next few months are going to be really hard on both my mom and dad.   I hope my next post brings better news.
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