Here I am... I CANNOT DO IT ON MY OWN!  It has gotten so out of hand!  Starting over.. I do have a different insurance, trying something new.. Looking into the vertical sleeve.  I PRAY TO GOD that this insurance pays more!  The last insurance didnt pay much at all.. I was looking at over 20K up front.  (RNY)  I have called my insurance and I had started the 6 month diet.. (which hopefully goes back a few months)  I will be talking to the case manager nurse on Monday 5/14 to get the ball going.  I am so incredibly DESPERATE!  I am sick of spending an arm and a leg just to get clothes that half way fit.. sick of being worthless to my 4 year old.  (that breaks my heart!)  Sick of generally not being able to move.. it is starting to affect my job :(
Prayers desperately needed!