Coping..... without food!?! on October 11, 2007 3:01 pm
Oh my goodness gracious.... I have been through some stressful times these past few weeks (home and work), and I've been challenged to find ways of coping; ways that don't involve loads of food. Yes, I have to be honest, I do find myself craving crispy, fried, sweet or salty crap. And, I've been less than an angel in some of my food choices in between meals. And I'm even getting a little nervous about a new development. It seems like my dumping syndrome is less sensitive than before (i.e. I can eat more sugary, starchy non-foods without feeling sick, or without feeling as sick). Not good.....
So, yesterday I took a "mental health day" off from work, and decided to push that "restart" button again. I headed to the gym.... cardio and weight training, and stretching back at home. And, I resisted the temptation to go out and buy a bag of cheetos (and it became apparent how much of a blessing leaving my purse at work the day before actually was!). I ate a good b'fast, good lunch, nutritious snack, and good dinner. HORRAY!!! I can feel myself getting back on track. And today, (back at hellish-stessful work) I ate my yogurt/museli on the way to work, 1/2 sandwich at lunch, and yogurt for snack. HORRAY AGAIN JENNIFER!!!! And I bought an apple for my ride home. HORRAY AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!
I'm finding myself having to fight this "all or nothing" thinking that is so easy for my brain. I have to say to myself, "Okay, you deviated from your best path for a bit there love, but you can get back on." Understanding and forgiveness. Not blame and shame.... Maybe as I do this more and more (find myself getting back to old/not so good for me habits and deciding to not flog myself over it, but just get back to better), it will become easier? Thank God I'm still capable of learning.
Oh...update. I am down to 267.2 pounds, 2.2 pounds away from a total loss of 100 pounds. BMI 41.8. That's cool, huh.
Love, JJ
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