I got a complete unfil on March 10, 2011 due to sever heart burn.  Then I got scheduled for a barium upper GI on Friday 3/18.  On Friday after the upper GI I freaked after looking at my own ungodly images like WTH is that!!!!  THe Dr. had to wait for the report and review the images on Monday the 21st.  While the reflux subsided I have been experiencing what is most likely esophogeal spams and other stomach discomfort.  Doctors orders - for the rest of the weekend until I heard back from him liquids and some mushies (pudding, yogurt etc).  I pushed my limites and tries some very moist scrambled eggs but

I got a call from the Dr. last evening and he said my band is in the right place and not slipped.   He said he was hoping with the unfill and prilosec that any irritation would subside but since the reflux was so severe and I continue to have esophogeal spasms and some stomach pains he wants to move forward with upper endoscopy.  I should hear from his scheduler today and hope to get that done in the next two weeks.   He ok'd me to go back on regular foods but food just hurts and while it taste good going down and goes down easier than ever, after, I have the dull aching chest pains.
 
So my now "unfilled" band sagas continue.  He said we will talk about options after the EGD! If nothing shows up on the EGD (erosion, ulcer anything like that) he still seemed inclined to try to revise because obviously being minimally filled is not working with the reflux and I should not be having the chest/esophagus pain.  For the few instances that I wasn't on straight liquids this weekend shortly after doing mushies...bam...the chest discomfort was on.  It's a very dull pain that I have had before since being banded - mainly if I have eaten a little too much but now that it is happening with pretty no food, no clue where it's coming from.  Today I have been on liquids only and still have dull chest pain.  What in the word is going on with my esophagus?!?!?!?
 
So as it is, I am still just hanging!  I'm going to stay offline and not self-research anything more to freak me out and try to be as careful with food and food choices without any restriction or my internal STOP sign as I like to call it.  
 
Still debating if I want to post a thread on the band board and share my experience.  Considering it's not a slip, they can't attack me and say it's your fault for overeating, your fault for not eating the right things, blame blame blame.   The band board can be so frustraing but I am thankful there are some people on there who understand and are supportive regardless if one is not the perfect bandster.  I think it's fair to share the good, the bad and the realistic. 

Wow I feel like its been forever...well it has like 3 months.  But truth be told it's been a rough 3 months.  My weight loss stalled over the holidays and snow storms but has picked back up recently.  I had another gall bladder attack last week and I am finally getting this beast removed.  

I got a fill on Monday 3/29 and did my modified diet for a week but for the past 10 days eating has been a struggle and yup quite frankly I am TOO TIGHT!  Better watch how and who I say that too lol  OOPS!  Unfortunately I can't do an unfill until the end of the week and not sure I will even get in, so this week is looking like probably not a great nutritious week but I'm going to try to do better than ice cream.  Some sliders go down but others do not and most of my protein is from shakes or milk or cheese which seems to be ok but I've certainly had very few real and/or nutritious filled meals so I need to work on that this week.

I am so close to breaking the 250 mark and getting on with the second half of my weight loss.  I realize i need to step things up on my end but all of this is still a learning process for me.  Maybe in  years time I will have my act together! 

And I'm crossing my fingers for strength, help, and miracles.  I know many people say a fill won't change things and it might not for you but it DOES for me.  I immediately woke up "different" today.  I had been starving and ready to eat furniture every morning for the past 2 weeks and today, I wake up not ready to kill someone. 

I was feeling a little tight last night and I'm still unsure.  I guess time will tell when I get back on solids but right now I am riding the wave of liquids.  Did fine yesterday and so far ok today.  I'm hungry a little but not evil and bitchy. 

I saw my pouch and my band on the barium swallow yesterday and it all is good.  My last weigh in at the Dr's office was on 11/26 and yesterday I was down 4lbs but that is with an entire month of living on fat and sugar...cookies, candy etc etc.  Not too bad.  Had I not fallen prey to those foods I'm sure I would have had great progress but that's neither here not there ...adios 2009 holiday season. 

I still have my mental funk going on but honestly I always do.  I myself have to accept that it is just who I am and other people who choose to associate with me have to accept it too.  I am a true at heart perfectionist with everything and therefore have a very hard time being content or satisfied even if things are going "good" as my mentality is they always could be better.....kinda might suck to me be you'd say and I'd have to agree sometimes.  It's not easy always having to work at something because things just aren't the right way and therefore something in my life is usually off balance and when lots of things are I am losing it like in my last blog.  We all can't help for our upbringing and our wiring.

I'm slowly but surely working and figuring out some things but of course they aren't going fast enough or easy at all so I get frustrated.  If I only had to focus on my weight loss it would be easier but such is NOT the case.  If I have my way I will get there though.  It's not going to be today, tomorrow or next week but I have a plan and a schedule, I just hope it works! 

Ok off to get my soup.  YAY for fills!

Well I haven't blooged about my WLS in a log time but here goes by bullet point mind you. I am in such a mood today I am not sure if I want to scream, cry, kick something, go to bed, drink or EAT! 

My discussion post have reflected whats been going on with me but in a nutshell I am just kinda miserable right now.

*hate the holidays badly - rather not go into major discussion but they are just never warm and cushy like peoples around me seem to be. 

*have been dealing with the so called gall bladder issues and trips to the ER and more and more Dr. visits.  Just have not been 100%

*Of course food got me through the holidays and while I could never do as much damage before I certainly went overboard on carbs and sugar.  I have gained maybe 3-5lbs since my last visit with my band Dr. at the end of November.  So the entire month of December went down the shitter with no progress and mild.minimal regress.  cookies and candy galore....and that is pretty much all i ate for a month...didn't care about protein or fluids and probably didn't touch a vegetable.  YES  I suck and here I go already sabatoging myself which again was one of my fears with the band.  I got in the mode well I lost alot of weight quickly I am ahead of the game so who cares about Christmas eat all the cookies and chocolate in sight.  WTF is wrong with me...WHAT GAME..  I'm the only player in my damn weight loss so I'm not ahead of shit. I am so pissed off! 

*I never feel good or happy ever!  I am always tired and stressed about something.  Work, money, my piece of crap house, the extent I go to with my rescue stuff, and my shitty shitty no more friends.  While I have met new and good people I just havent gotten to a point with them that I feel like I can ask them for help or depend on them...I hate depending on anyone for shit.  I have this attitude anymore that if I can't do it myself it just doenst get done.  Yes I am hating the world right now.

*had my EGD and my HIDA Scan last week - BOTH NORMAL so with those being said regardless of two trips to the ER with them thinking it's gall bladder nothing is proven so they right now they won't take it out.   I have to go get  base line blood CBC and then I have to get another after ANOTHER attack so I whatever is going on I will probably end up in the ER at some point AGAIN - probably when my weightloss resumes if and when that ever happens.

*Ok and I am starving.  I wake up hungry all the time.  I NEED A FILL but have to wait until 1/18.  Only 12 more days to try and keep myself together.  I've been sitting at my desk at work thinking about going down stairs and buying chocolate.

*I'm back in my funk and yes there are underlying issues.  I have some major life problems not including weight loss that I am dealing with and it just sucks - plain and simple. I somewhat isolate myself and try to just work through those things by myself but being alone alot just puts more emphasis on things.

*I realize I can only do one thing at a time and other things take time and I do my best not stress on everything but sometimes not stressing or being neurotic about something makes me go in the opposite direction...i.e. the weight loss and the past months behavior with eating junk food and sliders.

* let's finally add that I started off 2010 with my period which is making me miserable and the damn wind and cold I managed to get my first cold sore of 2010 ALREADY!  When I get a cold sore, I am the worst mood ever.  They are ugly, they hurt, they take at least a week out of my life of ritual behaviors by washing hands and not touching my mouth so I don't spread it etc.  And not to mention walking around looking like someone punch you in the mouth or like you have the plague on your face.  I'm sure most people who get cold sores are not as nuts as I am about them but I honestly have these bitches since I was 2 god damn years old thanks so some lovely family member who had them and decided to kiss a baby with a fucked up sore on their lip.  Damn to hell do I hate cold sores and stress and wind and this and that always causes and outbreak.


Ok thats enough. I am outright miserable today.  Maybe I can end the day with another trip to the ER so that I can find out what the hell is really wrong with me when I am doubled over in pain on the floor in the fetal position and can't breathe.

Times like this and in this mood I would eat, eat and eat more!  SO MUCH FOR THAT even though I know I could go attack some sliders. I will just stay at my desk with my protein juice and hate life today. 

Hmmm is tomorrow here yet?

Plateau Buster Diet
Courtesy of Stella62 (Lisa O.) from the Lap Band Forum
on May 17, 2009 7:19 am
There are two versions of this diet.  Both are posted here for your use.  I have know idea which one is best, (version II has fruits and veggies added).


Plateau Buster Diet, Version I

How to break a plateau

#1 - Do this for 10 days to break a plateau

#2 - Drink 2 quarts of water a day

#3 - You must have 45 grams of protein and all your vitamins/minerals supplements each day

#4 - You may consume up to 3 oz of the following high protein foods, 5x a day

beef
pork
chicken
turkey
lamb
fish
eggs
low fat cheese
cottage cheese
plain yogurt or artificially sweetened (?)
peanut butter
beans/legumes

You may also have:

sugar free popsicles
tea or coffee
sugar free soda
sugar free jello
broths/bullion (sp?)
crystal light drinks

#5 - If it's not on the list, you can't have it for 10 days!!!!

#6 - Keep a food diary and try to get up to 30 mins of exercise daily




Plateau Buster Diet,  Version II with fruits and veggies added.

#1 Do for 10 days to break plateau

#2 Drink 2 quarts of water a day

#3 You must have 45 grams of protein supplement and all your vitamin
& mineral supplements each day.

#4 You may consume up to 3 oz. of the following high-protein foods,
5 times a day:

* beef,
* pork,
* chicken,
* turkey,
* lamb,
* fish,
* eggs,
* low-fat cheese,
* cottage cheese,
* plain yogurt (or artificially sweetened),
* peanut butter,
* beans/legumes.

#5 You may also have:

* sugar-free popsicles (avoid juice popsicles),
* tea or coffee,
* sugar-free sodas,
* sugar-free Jello,
* broths & bouillons,
* Crystal Lite drinks.

For Vegetables eat from only this list:

Broccoli, cauliflower, green beans, spinach, Brussels sprouts,
Asparagus & Cabbage

For Fruit choose only from this list:
Cantaloupe, honey dew, watermelon and strawberries

#6 IF IT IS NOT ON THE LIST YOU MAY NOT HAVE IT!

#7 Keep a food diary and try to get 30 minutes of exercise daily.