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i feel like my surgery didnt work. i am 11 days out from RNY and i can already eat pureed chicken salad and mashed potatoes. Am i eating too much already!?!? I have not started taking any vitamins because i haven't found one that tastes good and i know i am not getting enough protein.  I am becoming more and more depressed each day that this surgery is already a failure. Nothing i eat is making me sick and i can easily down a cup of pureed anything in less than a half hour.  What is the point if i am just going back to what made me obese in the first place? i'm all healed up so i have nothing holding me back from excercising it's just the nutrition part. I still have a depressing amount of weight to lose and at the rate i'm going now it seems like it will never happen. 

**UPDATE: I just got back from my post op appointment. I weighed in at 352. The last time they weighed me was May 19th and i was 376, so 24lbs. I guess thats a start!! I was told to start on the puree diet so i am enjoying some pureed oatmeal right now. We'll see how i handle 2 ounces of it.


So tomorrow I will be 1 week out from having RNY.  Yesterday (Sunday) i finally was able to take normal sips of liquid. However, when i try to drink Glucerna, i get slightly nauseous. SO that might mean i will need to be on clear liquids for longer than i had hoped. I just bought a case of Isopure ALpine Punch flavor drinks. It has 40 grams of protein in it per bottle! So if you have two a day that is more than enough protein per day. But i wouldn't have 2 a day because the cases are $40. As far as how I'm feeling, i am in no pain at all and I'm ready to hit the gym again! I don't want to waste anytime building muscle. my incisions seem to be healing just fine. I just got my Optisource vitamins today, i am not looking forward to taking them. For this brand it says take 4 chewables a day. I am gonna have to find a new brand.  

In other news, i have been watching the food network since i got home from the hospital. Something about watching all that amazing food being eaten, satisfies me. You would think it's torture, but its just the opposite. Sucking on my tropical sugar free Popsicles satisfies me just fine! And my raspberry lemonade crystal light. OH and chicken broth, but not too much because i looked on the label for the Swanson broth and it says 680 mg of sodium per cup. I think that may be wayyy too much. so i only had it once.

well that's all i have for now! I will be updating my weight on Wednesday after my follow up appointment!!

 so i am officially a post op gastric bypass patient! i still cannot believe it. Now that i'm back home, when i'm not drinking fluids, i feel the exact same as i did before i went into surgery. i have no pain at all. AND there are only 4 small incisions on my stomach. I was shocked. I wanted to ask the surgeon if he really did the operation. The only problem i had was drinking the Glucerna shakes. I had to drink 4 ounces in 1 hour in order for them to send me home. Well, after just drinking water and cranberry juice, the Glucerna felt like i just ate a huge steak and potatoes. It hit me like a ton of bricks. It just felt terrible sitting in my stomach, but i had to drink them in order to go home so i did. Now that i'm home i am going to take my sweet sweet time drinking everything. On another note, I gained 10 lbs during my 3 day at the hospital. I'm  guessing thats from all the liquids they pumped through my veins, but they didn't even weigh me during my entire stay so that was a little weird. But i am so glad to be home, i have one more week off from work then its back to the grind which means i will be going back to the gym. i am so excited to see this weight come off! i;ve been waiting a long time for this!

in 14 hours i will be having gastric bypass surgery. I am still in shock. I really cannot believe it!!! i am going to milk this surgery for everything its worth. Tomorrow marks the first day of my new life and i am not going to stop until i am 100% happy with my body.  I plan to be at my goal by December of 2011. After tomorrow there will be no more excuses for not going to the gym. I have a pretty solid routine now but i am going to take it to the max as soon as i am healed. I really do not want to have plastic surgery but i feel as though it is going to be inevitable.

So theres really nothing else for me too say other than this website has been like a second home to me for the past 2 years since i joined. I love all the responses i get from the forum and especially how quickly i get them! this site is going to be a life saver after tomorrow!
 

Two more days!!! i have never wanted the weekend to end faster! My RNY is on Tuesday June 15th at 10 am. i have successfully not had a single piece of solid food since June  8th, i have had about 5 protein shakes a day.  i am starving but no piece of fucking food could make me go off track now. I am SO close to my new life!! The only thing that i am pissed about that i was hoping wouldn't happen, is that i began my period today! Like most overweight women, i have very heavy, thick periods. The last place i would ever want to be while on my period would be in a hospital with people around me 24/7. So hopefully it will stay light until i am able to go home on Thursday. 

In preparation for my new life, i just cleared out my entire kitchen and stocked it with protein. so all my cabinets and refrigerator are empty. If it;s not there i can;'t eat it right?!  I keep my scale in my kitchen so i can weigh when i wake up, and today i weighed 362. I was in the 360s two years ago when i began this process. My highest weight was 428 in August of 2009. So i guess i have lost over 60 pounds, on my own, in 10 months. If i can do that with just diet and exercises, what can i do with this RNY?!?! Oh man i just got myself even more excited. I can't wait till I'm healed so i can hit the gym hard. I know i am going to need a tummy tuck and possibly a breast augmentation (noo!) but i want to see what i can do with regular strength training. maybe my skin will snap back in some places. Either way, this past month has been so surreal and i am on cloud nine, patiently awaiting for Tuesday.