ObesityHelp

i have recently been spending ALOT of time on this site, because you know, I'm a hermit and i don't go out because i hate people, ANYWAY , i just love all the  responses to all the posts i put on the forums! I wish i had friends like this in real life i could hang out with!!!!!  
But that's where my "feeling a little better" stops. I was sick all last week so i didn't go to the gym, which means i ate fast food ALOT. I cannot believe sometimes, how much food i eat in a day. It's disgusting. In one day, I had McDonald's for breakfast, KFC for lunch, and Wendy's for dinner. UMMMMMMMM kill me now please! I swear food needs to be considered an addictive drug!!! I am SO happy when i am eating and digesting this tasty food, but then of course when i look in the mirror i cannot understand why i continue to do this to myself. I mean it's absolutely ridiculous the amount of food i can eat in such a short time. I have a bottomless stomach. I NEVER feel full. EVER. i swear i could lose 10 lbs in like 3 days by all the trips from the couch to the kitchen i make, if only i didn't eat food every time.  
I feel bad for my mom and my sister because whenever i go food shopping, about 50% of what i bought for the 3 of us is gone THE FIRST DAY. That's why i like not having any food in the house. It forces me to go out and get a meal, i choose subway sometimes, but if i just have a fast food i can only eat whats in front of me. Of course I'm probably eating thousands of calories in one sitting, but of course i don't care when I'm eating it. 
My sister said to me TWICE the other day, "i can't believe you ate all the peanut butter already" and "DID YOU EAT ALL THAT CHEESE?!" haha the second one is kind a funny, but it wasn't funny when she said it. It really hurt me. But hey, i did eat it all. In one day. I also ate an entire box of cookies that my mom hid from me. OH and get this, i went out and bought her a new box and, I ATE ALL THOSE! before she got to them. That's what i did with some candy  i got her for Xmas. I got her a little bag of mike n ikes and i ate them 2 days after xmas. then i bought her a big box of them, anddd i ate those too.
God i loveeeee food! But i was thinking i only like the taste of things, ugh i MAKE NO SENSE. shit i forgot was i was gonna say....... oh that's another thing! i can never remember things anymore. just little things though like what i was watching on TV during the commercials. or why i went into a certain room. it scares me sometimes. Is there something wrong with my brain?
Whatever, on another note i had the best dream the other day! I dreamt i was napping with an infant napping on my chest :) It made me smile in my sleep. I love babies. I want some! oh wait i need a boyfriend first. HAHA that makes me laugh. Who the fuck would ever want to go out with me! Not to toot my own horn, ( i was gonna say "not to suck my own dick" but i thought it was too vulgar) i think alot of guys would like me! if i was the right size. What is the right size you ask? i don't know. All i know is I'm not it! i would love to know what it's like to have someone be attracted to you mentally and physically. But obviously more physically. Lets be honest here! i am a horny teenager, and ITS NOT GONNA LAST FOREVER!  Ew why am i writing this! no one wants to hear it. Unless you can relate! then please, i welcome your responses and stories. 
I am a nosy bitch and i love knowing every detail about everyone! 


OMFG i am so sorry this post is fucking insane. I just needed to get all this shit out of my head! I applaud anyone who reads this whole thing! or if anyone reads it at all!!! LOL

Until next time...
xoxo Gossip Girl
haha jk xoxo Olivia

*i need to stop using that xoxo gossip girl joke, i just love that show so much...**