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Started the 5 day pouch test yesterday, day 2 over, and day 3 all prepared and ready to go.  I really got out of control witht he Carbs, and sliders, so back on track.  I can't let all this hard work to get healthy go away.  I am so thankful for the 5 day pouch test, it really does work to get you back on the right road.  I really do have a pouch that is small, and my hunger was head hunger.  I can't wait to see the scale move again in the right direction.   I am back on my nutrition tracker too, it really does feel good be back.

 Mad at self, I have gotten off track and now the scale is my enemy again, I am obsessed with weighing in each day and to see 1 lb after another creeping back on.  I only have about 6 weeks till I hit my 2 year anniversary and I never reached goal.  I just bought  The 5 day pouch test book, and starting today I am getting back on track.  I just have to get over the self hate and depression that I have gained back over 12lbs.  This sucks, and it wasn't what I wanted.  But I am the one to blame, I seem to graize on stupid things.  I have even found I tolerate sugar, and I swore I'd never try sugar again, but here I am loving those little Halloween size candies that are in my office tempting me every time I walk by the candy dish.  I go to the gym 4 times a week, and actually started running on the treadmill so I am not being inactive which is another reason I am so disgusted with myself.  I will start recording my food intake again, and get on this website every day for inspiration and support.  HELP!

WEIGHT GAIN????  I started working out more and now I gained 7lbs.  I know...I know...look how far I have come, but not even 13 months out and I start gaining?  Just venting, and wishing the scale wasn't my enemy still.

Hard to believe it's been a year since my surgery.  I am down 106lbs, I feel great and am so glad I had this life changing surgery.  I recommend it to anyone who is thinking of WLS.  I wish I had done it earlier in my life to enjoy healthy fit feelings when I was younger.   I am 25lbs from goal and though it is slowed to a stop, I am still not regretting any decisions I made.  Just started working out with a PT and his encouragement is very helpful.  I have to look at old pictures from a year ago when I get down about the scale not moving.   I can eat more things now, so I have to be careful on my choices.  I will continue to stay connected to this website as it has been a big support system for me so far on my journey.

Now closing in on my 1 year surgeriversary, and frustrated that my weight has slowed to a stop again.  I have to get real and know how far I have come in one year.  I am no longer on any medications, cleared of all co-morbidities, wearing a size 14 and even a 12 in some clothes and feeling and looking younger.  The reality is I can't be frustrated at my body catching up to this 99lb weight loss.  Yes I wanted to be at a goal of 150 by my year anniversary, but I am 168 and really not far from that goal.  I have to stay positive and push forward with that healthy attitude.  I am looking into a personal trainer, so firming up the loss is my goal now.  Still so thankful and happy that I had this surgery, and that my life style has changed to a healthier and happier me.