I have a surgery date. WOW!  I feel like Im truly getting what I want out of life. A new beginning. A chance.....just a chance to live to fight another day. In otther words to let it all hang out there.....Im tired of being rejected. Im tired of missing a promotion. Im tired of being the muscle (even though it mainly fat). Im tired of being the do gooder instead of people being good to me. Im tired of sleepless nights and high B/P days. I am so READY for CHANGE. A me first situation, but im still willing to give... give and not take my life for granted.