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Hurry up, 199!!!! and some ramblings.....
on April 17, 2009 5:25 am
I am feeling so impatient this isn't even funny! I want to see you, 199, so badly. I have not seen you since late 2004, but you came to see me for a few days in 2005 at 198 lbs.Be the first to leave a comment.
The lowest weight recorded on my electronic medical records that I can see on MyGroupHealth website (gotta love Group Health) was 176 on May 14, 2004. I remember being in the low 170s in early 2004, but since Dustin and I ended our relationship in April 2004. I did not gain much weight after the breakup, however, I started gaining weight after my miscarriage (met another guy in Sept... and got preg. in Oct whoops and I had broken up with him the day I found out I was pregnant but that was a planned breakup even before I found out I was pregnant), then I miscarried which was very emotional on me and started gaining weight back. He did not react well to both break up and the pregnancy. He said it will ruin my weight loss efforts, and begged me for an abortion, which I refused. The reason we broke up was because he did not make any efforts to see me, plus we weren't on the same page anyway. When I miscarried, I told him and his reaction was "I'm sorry you went through that, but at least it saved you from making a choice". OMG! I was going to keep the baby!
I guess things happens for a reason. Anyway, I just totally fell off the wagon..... and in Dec 04 I went christmas shopping with mom and at the mall parking lot, mom asked me "when are you going back on diet, I can see you gaining weight again" OMG! That truly hurt me, and I told mom "don't you remember what I was going thru, 2 breakups and a miscarriage". She never brought it up again. That hurt when someone commented on my weight gain!! :(
Now, since the lapband surgery...........I'm so glad people are supportive of me. However I try to keep this private at work, but it seems to be a general knowledge among co workers because people talk, plus they see how I eat, one co worker in the dept had RNY surgery, plus I was gone for a week when I had my surgery and one co worker asked me a few weeks ago how i was feeling. I asked her "how did you know?" She said people talk. Grrrrr.....
Now, this woman, I'll call her T, she seems cold to me now since then, because she doesn't talk to me, and when I'm talking to my cube mate (work related) she interputs me... grrrrr, she wasn't like that before my surgery. Only time she talks to me is work related stuff, and in meetings which are rare. Yes, she is big herself and the interpreter was interpreting stuff in meeting, and even interpreter what she was telling other co worker "I'll never be a size 2". Hmmmmm! I was tempted to chime in and tell her get the surgery like I did! I am pretty sure she knows about my lapband bec like I said people talk ..... and I have never mentioned it to her. But that is ok .... bec I am not fond of her either but I have to be nice, cordial and all sorts at work and I just mostly keep to myself at work because I have ALOT of work to do and I love it!
This weekend I'm going to get my hair done, possibly layers, in hopes to make my hair less THICK. and highlights if my hair looks healthy because the GH WLS program doesn't recommend any hair work for 6 months if we are experiencing hair loss. I am not experiencing hair loss but will check with my hair dresser to see if its ok. My hair is in bad need of highlighting. The last one was Saturday before the surgery! heh.
Then finally see my parents!! I have not seen them since April 2nd since they moved to Sequim, WA!!!!!
Off to work so ttfn!