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Peek a boo! 199???
on April 19, 2009 10:12 pm

I think 199 is just around the corner, this morning I weighted in and it said 200.2!!!

Hurry up, 199!!!! and some ramblings.....
on April 17, 2009 5:25 am

I am feeling so impatient this isn't even funny!  I want to see you, 199, so badly. I have not seen you since late 2004, but you came to see me for a few days in 2005 at 198 lbs.

The lowest weight recorded on my electronic medical records that I can see on MyGroupHealth website (gotta love Group Health) was 176 on May 14, 2004. I remember being in the low 170s in early 2004, but since Dustin and I ended our relationship in April 2004. I did not gain much weight after the breakup, however, I started gaining weight after my miscarriage (met another guy in Sept... and got preg. in Oct whoops and I had broken up with him the day I found out I was pregnant but that was a planned breakup even before I found out I was pregnant), then I miscarried which was very emotional on me and started gaining weight back.   He did not react well to both break up and the pregnancy. He said it will ruin my weight loss efforts, and begged me for an abortion, which I refused. The reason we broke up was because he did not make any efforts to see me, plus we weren't on the same page anyway. When I miscarried, I told him and his reaction was "I'm sorry you went through that, but at least it saved you from making a choice". OMG!  I was going to keep the baby!

I guess things happens for a reason. Anyway, I just totally fell off the wagon..... and in Dec 04 I went christmas shopping with mom and at the mall parking lot, mom asked me "when are you going back on diet, I can see you gaining weight again" OMG! That truly hurt me, and I told mom "don't you remember what I was going thru, 2 breakups and a miscarriage". She never brought it up again. That hurt when someone commented on my weight gain!! :(

Now, since the lapband surgery...........I'm so glad people are supportive of me.   However I try to keep this private at work, but it seems to be a general knowledge among co workers because people talk, plus they see how I eat, one co worker in the dept had RNY surgery, plus I was gone for a week when I had my surgery and one co worker asked me a few weeks ago how i was feeling. I asked her "how did you know?"  She said people talk. Grrrrr.....

Now, this woman, I'll call her T, she seems cold to me now since then, because she doesn't talk to me, and when I'm talking to my cube mate (work related) she interputs me... grrrrr, she wasn't like that before my surgery. Only time she talks to me is work related stuff, and in meetings which are rare. Yes, she is big herself and the interpreter was interpreting stuff in meeting, and even interpreter what she was telling other co worker "I'll never be a size 2". Hmmmmm! I was tempted to chime in and tell her get the surgery like I did!    I am pretty sure she knows about my lapband bec like I said people talk ..... and I have never mentioned it to her. But that is ok .... bec I am not fond of her either but I have to be nice, cordial and all sorts at work and I just mostly keep to myself at work because I have ALOT of work to do and I love it!

This weekend I'm going to get my hair done, possibly layers, in hopes to make my hair less THICK. and highlights if my hair looks healthy because the GH WLS program doesn't recommend any hair work for 6 months if we are experiencing hair loss. I am not experiencing hair loss but will check with my hair dresser to see if its ok. My hair is in bad need of highlighting. The last one was Saturday before the surgery! heh.

Then finally see my parents!! I have not seen them since April 2nd since they moved to Sequim, WA!!!!!

Off to work so ttfn!

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Hawaii fever big time!
on April 2, 2009 1:50 pm

I am so tired of this frigging weather here in Seattle, WA. Rain, cold, wind, snow, yes we had snow on 4/1, but did not stick!

I so need to get out of here to Hawaii, hoping for December! We shall see!!

At least there is Florida in July then Viva Vegas 5 days after I return from FL!!!

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Still trying to determine if need a fill
on March 31, 2009 1:48 pm

A while back, I posted on LB forum to determine if I needed a fill or not.

A light came on in my head today. I haven't had my ginger tea in over a week .. I usually have my tea in the mornings everyday and the ginger seems to suppress my hunger/appetite..

now that i haven't drank the tea, I get hungry between breakfast and lunch but I am OK after lunch and can go a few hours until dinner.

My tea is finally here at home, I'm at work so it's sitting on my porch waiting for me to pick it up. I need to go to the store and buy ginger and lemon and make the tea! Then I will drink it tomorrow morning to see if my theory is right. If not, then I may need to put even more higher protein at breakfast but I ran out of turkey sausage link!

.. so I will continue to do this experiment!! If I think, then I will need to call my doc for an earlier appt. than May 12th.

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Depressing threads lately on Lapband forum
on March 29, 2009 7:06 pm

Reading Silkrose's posts lately, I choose not to particpate in that thread.

I think it is wrong of them to punish the kid for not eating!!  UGH!

A certain percentage (I forget how many... 17% maybe?) of abused children goes onto becoming a violent offender later in life. It has happened to my nephew:

My 25 years old nephew is serving time in prison for murder. Don't want to go into details.

Anyway, my brother has 4 kids. two girls, two boys. 25, 24, 19 and 17.    The oldest two have the same mother. They divorced in 1987 and my bro got full custody. He met this woman in late 1987 or early 1988. They have been abusing each other from the beginning... bec of drinking and drugs. Which resulted in the wicked "step mother" abusing the oldest two kids. My brother had two more kids with this wicked woman.

The 25 yr old nephew had been acting up in school, prior to Thanksgiving. The wicked step mom punished him by not letting him have turkey but let him have pumpkin pie. I was sooo LIVID!!!

NEVER USE FOOD AS PUNISHMENT OR REWARD, EVER!!! Food is fuel for our bodies.
I wanted to take the two oldest kids and raise them. My mom was of course against it believing the family should stay together.

My bro and the wicked wife often went to jail for DV, DWI, etc. Always dragging me and my parents into their issues, which my parents almost divorced over it.    the wicked wife's father sexually molested my 24 years old neice and neice tried to tell wicked step mother and the wicked bitch step mother told her not to say anything.    The wicked step mom also molested my nephew by showing her xx rated movie and put her gentials on his face. He did tell school, but step mom manipulated them out of it saying he's crazy, etc.   It's just so sad.

They finally divorced in 1995. HALLEJUAH! But unfortunantely my nephew started having trouble with law at age of 12. Brother continued to be using drugs, etc. Which made it very hard for them to get help!

So in 2003 nephew murdered someone..............................

Nephew was emotional at sentencing and explained about his lost childhood, abused, and how hard it was to get some help with dad and step mom sabogating his efforts to get help.

Yesterday I was over at my parents house sorting through pictures and I got emotional looking at the baby pictures of my nephew.

My brother has never gotten married again since, and I don't think he wants to. My brother is doing better now, not using, etc. He goes to see my nephew quite often in prison.

My neice has forgave the step mom and still keep in touch. I can't believe this. If I were her, i wouldn't forgive her, ever. I cannot stand this step mother and I'm glad she s no longer my sister in law. At my neice's wedding back in 2006 the wicked step mom was there, she tried to approach me to say hi, i just moved away. I wouldn't even talk to her or acknowledge her at all.

Sorry if this sounds very harsh but her actions are very unforgiveable.

So all in all, I hope that silkrose's kid get some help before something more serious happens to him.

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