May 9, 2008
Well here we are, my one year banniversary! I have only lost 30 lbs, some say that is great others are wondering what happen? Being too tight for so long really ruined it for me. From Aug 2007 to Dec 2007, I did not know I was too tight I thought I had taken care of that in Aug but I guess not. Anyway I could come up with millions of excuses WHY, but right now I just feel like I failed myself, today is a sad day! Just had my upper GI and all is well so I am going to try and get a small fill next week and see if I can get back on track with this thing. I have started with Accupuncture to aid me with getting my life back in balance and I am hoping that by changing my attitude and working with my Acc. Dr that I can get moving again. I guess I will be one of those that will take longer then others but I am damn sure going to make this work, failure is not an option. I still have 70 lbs to go and I am hoping that by this time next year I will have GOOD news and not so depressing. Candi Y.........you are my hero, you are my insperation as well as many of you on the OH board that struggle everyday. Thank you for inspiring those of us out there still trying. until next time...............
Feb 14, 2008
-30........Okay well since having my fill taken out in Dec. I am so much better! I am not so fustrated with everything in life
and I feel much better, only a slight problem and that is that I am not losing weigh. I have stayed the same for 6months now, how crazy is this thing. Like I said earlier, just the volume of food that I take in now in comparison to pre band you would think...........but that is not how it works either! For those of you that have been successful with this process I commend you.
I am going to go back in for another fill and try to get back on the losing side again, I have a long way to go and hope that
this will all turn out good in the end. Good luck to all
-29 lbs.......Well I went to see Doc late in Dec, I was so tired of throwing everything up and I was not losing weight. He took some of my fill out, and I am ALOT better, why didn't I do that earlier? bad news is I have gained a few pounds and am not losing at all. The fill I had in July is gone plus some, that was a waste of $100! Now my restriction is slight, but not effective???? It is funny how this works great for some and not for others, just reducing the volumes of food alone should be helpful in the weight loss, but it does not seem to work that way. Good luck to those still trying. I guess I have alot more
work to do emotionally in order for this all to work in the long run, my excercise is up and I walk everyday with a group of friends that are all working hard to stay on track. baby steps, just baby steps.................
DEC 12, 2007
STILL only -32lbs........Nothing has changed all the same. I still throw up no matter what I eat. I have not been to support
nor have I called the doc. I don't want to hear any bullshit about what I do wrong, I had this surgery so that things would be
right now it is wrong plus more added stress. Everyone is so gushy about Dr Simpson and his staff, I have never had the warm fuzzys from any of them I guess that is why I am fighting going back in to see them. So the bullshit continues and the
only good thing about this band today is that I no longer have to sleep with the cpap machine......maybe something nicer and in a better frame of mind next time!
-32lbs So, here we are still the same after 3 months I have stayed the same. I was not concerned the first few months just because I figured that my body was on a natural plateau. After 3 months, time is up, I am ready for more to go. I have lost inches but nothing in the weight dept. I suppose I should go to the Dr. and have a chat. I still throw up at least everyother day. Some days I can eat something and the next day the same thing and throw it up. The fustration is off the charts! I have not been able to attend a group meeting and I am thinking that might help with more motivation. If you are reading this and can offer any ideas please send me a note, I am open to ANY suggestions to get this jump started and moving in the losing direction again. Thanks for reading!
Sept. 1, 2007
-30....still. Okay so I have no idea what the hell is happening, I am trying to just go with it, but it is fustrating. I am drinking the water, no pasta,bread,rice....etc.....nothing! I have called out for help from Candi Y.....she is my roll model, hopefully she
can give me some ideas. I know that NOT eating does not work. I am hoping this is just a plateau and I will start moving again soon. I don't think I want a fill after what I went thru with the last one, but something has got to give, I am fighting off
depression and that just makes the ball roll faster.............any ideas? anyone?
JULY 23, 2007
-30.3 Hello to those of you reading this. I am back on track in the loss department! I had my second fill on July 17th and I have lost 5 lbs this week. I am thinking that I am a bit too tight as I am having a hard time keeping things down. Not the way I want to lose weight, but I told the Dr to be agressive, so for my 44th birthday he did just that and tightend me up. I forgot that it has only been a week and have been trying to eat real food instead of staying on a soft diet. It is motivating to see the scale moving so I am going to work hard and stay on track. Until next time!
July 8, 2007
-25. So I have decided that this is not working the way I want it too........I am going to start updating every week (sundays) and see
if that will help me be more accountable to myself. I have stopped weighing myself every morning, I am really trying to ignore the damn scale and not let it rule my life. Right now with the wx being anywhere from 113' to 117' it is so hard to stay motivated to work out, but I have been walking at the school at night while my son has baseball practice, it is alot better then sitting there watching. I even grabbed my glove and got out there and shagged a few balls. I am swimming in the mornings (it is hell on my hair) but it feels good and the kids love that I am in the water with them. I want to thank "Candi" she is one of my motivating factors. until next time!
-19lbs. I have not updated in awhile, I have been a bit fustrated with my loss so far. I had my first fill on the 12th of June and I am losing again, but it is slow. I guess slow is not bad but I want it to go faster........I know I know patience! I had my first bout with getting something stuck yesterday.......tuna of all things, it was not dry, but boy did it scare me. I was home alone and started to panic because I could not catch my breath. DH came home in the middle of it, so I was relieved that he was here to talk me thru it. I have a lump in my chest today so I am taking it easy and doing liquids, a few days of liquids will not kill me, that tuna almost did tho! With it being 113' out, it is hard to get out for a walk, but I will press on and try to keep a good attitude. Until next time!
May 16, 2007
-10lbs! One week out and I am a "Loser!" The first two days were VERY hard, the hunger and head hunger were making me nuts, I have been walking like crazy....Hell ya no wonder you lose weight, you can't eat and you walk everywhere......LOL.....The first 4 days were the hardest, but I have quickly learned what I can and can not have and how it all makes me feel. I only took pain meds at night for the first few days, but no longer need them, I am sleeping like a baby and I am feeling better and better every day. I will say that I questioned my decision to do this a million times, but I am starting to like it and learning how to make it all work for me. A journal has been key to get me thru and the vitimins and water are a must. 1130am and 4pm are HUNGRY times, if I can make it thru those two hours life is good! Talk to you soon!
So, today 5/9/2007 my weight loss journey begins (again). For some reason this time I think I am goig to be successful. I have tried them all, I have won and lost many times and today I finially feel that I do see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I checked into the hospital this morning at 630a, my surgery was scheduled for 830a, at 845 they wheeled me into OR. I walked out of the hospital at 10:50am! I was alittle irrated that they woke me from such a great nap, but it was all about getting out of there and getting back to normal at home. I have to say the commercials are killing me, the head hunger is a powerful thing, but after reading all the success stories on this site, I am inspired and excited to lose this weight. My final "heavy" weigh in was an official 257.5 lbs at 5' 9", my goal is 150 by this time next year! I also have to add that not once did I get nervous about the decision, but I did hesitate until the very last minute.......I think that I made the right choice, time will tell!