one srry to everyone  for taking a long time to get back my comp has been down it total bummer and the next my surgery was put on hold ok here is the story 

ok i had a stress test done like 2 months ago and my cardiologist said if there was a problem he would call me so i didn't get a call so i thought i was good i get mins. away from getting rolled in to the or and the anesthesiologist looks over my tests and says there is an issue with my stress test and they cant risk me being under so long with something wrong with my heart so they put it on hold till i she another cardiologist so long story short he gave me the thumbs up and my new date is dec 7th yay!!!!

so here we are i have all my tests done the whole money issue that is another story i am pondering swiching doctor's. my cousin who have the same exact insurance as me has had her rny done and all of it was covered our insurance carrier. i gave them all last month to return my calll and as of yet they still haven't  so i think imma swich. oh yeah a cpap update i swiched my masks from the one that covers my nose to the nasil pillows at first they dried out my nose and the back of my throat but now i am ok with i can now get 6hrs in now with no prob so thats a good thing. oh a lil other good news a friend of the family works at my insurance co. 

 some big girls are walking around with their eyes closed to other thing and views!!!
 i frequent a website called imvu and i joined a group bbw and bbw lovers. one day the topic came up about weight loss so i chimed in on the what i am going to have done. now keep in mine i was not trying to recruit any of them to the WLS way of thinking only to share MY journey and the other methods i have used in the past aka diets(and there were alot). OK here is a lil of what was said......
ME: OK i know how hard it is first hand i have been dieting on and off for 15 of my 30 yrs and i can tell u it gets no easier as u get older. I am at the point in my life were things have got to change so i decided like 3 months ago to get gastric bypass (yes i know what so will say its the easy way out and oh its so dangerous etc ...)i have to think about my children. **** yes lil goal are the best goals. when u reach them u are so pumped for the next on next thing u know u are were u wanna be. Best of luck to u!
THEM: hey gastric bypass is no easy solution by any means. its a surgery and with all surgeries there's risk for complications. I wish the best for you and great success with your surgery, I know how tough it can be. I had two aunts get bypass surgery one was a success and one was not.
ME: i look at gastric bypass as a tool and not a solution plz i am not one of those ppl i mean it is so very hard for me when i never feel like im full. this will not be my first surgery i have had three c-section not a walk in the park either. ty for ur support though, i have been pondering this for like three year now doing research talkin with doctors going to seminars and now that my knees are bad and my terrible 2yr is all over the place something must be done.
THEM: Due to all my weight loss(without surgery) I now have to see a plastic surgeon to have him remove whats left of my tummy, lol. I know I wont look like I did before I had four kids, maybe I'll look better. 
(As Yall May Know I Have Had 5 Children BTW)
ME: Ty PDP Well i have been dieting for the past three months and i lost only three lbs then i gained one back and just found out i have sleep apnea which they tell me doesn't help the weight lose thing one bit. can u say biggest waist of the past 90 that i will never get back. i give all the props to those who can lose with out surgery and don't gain much back u are truly bless.
THEM: I've always wanted to get the adjustable band done, but I'm scared. I fear that if I loose too much weight reapidly I'll end up with excess skin. (That one was bad but just a lead in)
ME: well my doctor said that if u have been big for a wile u will have excess skin to some degree. but i do think that the lap band is a awesome option i mean gastric bypass to me is for ppl with extreme health issues and the quick weight lose will quickly take them from life morbid to a long life. 
THEM: Thing is, its not rapid loss, its only about 1kg(2.2lbs) a week in most women, and sure, my skin isn't as taut as it used to be, but i don't have flaps of skin sagging around my ankles either.. but then after having a child, breastfeeding and being in my 30's i don't expect to have the skin of a 20 year old. Thing is, if you tone up a bit, gain a little muscle bulk, it takes up some of the skin too. I think the only thing I would have fixed after reaching my goal weight is to have a boob lift.. and that's mostly from being a mum and breastfeeding anyways.
I agree that the old fashioned way is a pain in the butt. I like exercising, and I can easily reduce my calorie intake. The problem for me was that I have so many metabolic problems, and had gained so much weight that my body wouldn't burn enough calories to lose, even with 1.5 hours of the gym every day of the week and eating 1000 Calories a day. Over 6 months of this I only lost 6kg (13lbs). So, I went and spoke to my doctors and they agreed it was time to try something else. 

Don't get me me wrong i understand were they are coming from but it seemed to me that some didn't understand were i was coming from. 

this whole thing is making me frustrated and i am not sure what to do talk some more or just leave the group.

would yall leave the group?
would yall continue to respond?
or
would yall start yall own group for WLS ppl?

 

ok were to begin i went to the doctors (surgeon) idk were i was going so i asked the bus driver she didn't know were this place was so i tried to read the map as best as i could wound up walking a mile and a half give or take in the wrong direction.i knew i was late so i got on the bus again so wile i was on the bus on the way up again i decided to see how far it was past were i got off at it was like 3min on bus past were i got off at and i don't see how she didn't know were it was there was a big ole blue sign that sat about 9ft off the ground and blue and white. i was so mad i got in there to see if maybe i could squeeze in or just reschedule the doctor i want will be booked till July like 10th or something so i went with one of his associates and i will be seen now on the 23. i just want this to get started already. a friend of mine(somewhat) has her date its in two weeks and her nerves are starting to get to her and but instead of talking to me she talks to our other friend who is not getting wls. i have been doing research for like two years now but because she started before me idk what i am talking about she tells me i need to buy this book wls for dummies well im no dummies i have every shred of info on the topic in my head or in my faves on my comp(she is a shopaholic any how) i mean come on ok so there's my rant and update