I am just frustrated right now. I want to go home to have my surgery so that I can have my family with me instead of my husbands family. I love my husband but in this situation I want my family not his surrounding me. I am confused. I am scared to have it here since I am not sure I can get the help I would need post-op here. I KNOW I can get it at home. I need to get on the ball to get this going to get things in order but I just can't if it has to be done here. I work for a place that gives me paid time off. I'm not talking a percentage but 100% of my base pay. I don't want to leave my husband for the time I would be in Ohio but I just can't face it here. I am too scared. I hate this feeling.