I am still so grateful for the tool that was given to me on February 3, 2003.  I used it to live my life again.  And, live is just what I've done.  I have experienced so much since having lost weight.  I wouldn't have been able to do all that I have and for the memories and experiences, it has been worth it.  It wasn't easy, but I did it.  Now, almost 7 years later, I have to regain my composure, look within, and reach deep inside to make sure that I don't misuse this tool.  I have gained about 30 pounds since having surgery - all of which has come on in the last 9 months or so.  To go from a size 8 to a size 12 is frightening to me.  Have I lost my mind or something???  I have began to get off my lazy buns and walk on the treadmill and watch my intake of carbs.  I am beginning to right down everything I eat so I can see where I am going wrong and make the necessary corrections.  When I was a size 22, size 12 would have been a dream to me.  However, I don't want to get comfortable at this size and weight.  My frame doesn't want to accommodate it.  I know what I must do.  Now I just have to DO IT!

I'm off... because I am rambling now.....