268lb164lb

As you all know, I am tone deaf and hard of hearing in both ears.  I was born with it and was in a specal  class.  I went from school to school it and that was hard for me as a kid I had to learn to talk as i could not talk .most of my life i have been made fun of and called name all beacuse of my hearing loss.     I also went from doctor to doctor to find out what was wrong.  My Mom & Dad found a Doctor in Syracuse, NY and that is how we found out about my hearing loss.  I did finish high school with my sister Twila.  That was my wish and it was accomplished with allot of hard work on my part due to my hearing loss.  Things don't always come out the way I want them to I get myself in a jam some times.  It 's also hard for me to understand some things and I have to ask what it means.  I have a wonderful husband and two girls and one step son.  I have been married for 26 years, going on 27 years in April.  Six years ago my marriage almost ended but the good Lord brought us back together.  We both go to church two times a week.  

I have 3 wonderful grandchildren that are my life.  I have 5 sisters and 3 brothers.  I have a brother that had bypass surgery and he did good for awhile.  I watch him get sick because he does not follow his diet.  At that time, I said I would never have bypass surgery.  That was 15 years ago.  Then my sister had the same surgery and she did good.  That was 9 years ago.  When I was putting the weight back on, I said to myself, everyone'd not the same afterwards.  It changed my way of thinking.  I also have a sister that had the lap band procedure done and she also did good for awhile.  Some of her weight came back on.  At this time, I was at the end and I knew that I needed to do something.  Therefore, I had the RNY procedure in September of 2005.  I weighed in at 268 lbs.  I wanted to look like my sister did but I learned that I have to be me.  I know that it was God's will to have the surgery.  For a year I prayed about it and the day came to have it done.  It was the best day of my life.  My husband and my best friend ,her name is Betty and she is our Spuritual mom,  were more scared than I was.  My surgery was 5 hours.  I became scared when I kept geting sick and I had a fever.  My heart was racing and Dr. Oh called the floor every hour to see how I was.  I don't know what caused the fever or my heart to race.  I know the pain medications made me sick.  I kept talking to God for his healing and I made a promise to God, that afterwards I would pick up the kids and bring them to church.  I am still doing that.  I have learned that it takes work on my part daily.  Just like my hearing, one day at a time is not easy.  No, I am a fighter and can say now, that my brother is doing good.  He is back on his diet and my sister is working on geting the weignt off by going to the gym. as of to day 12/28/06 my sister has lost 60lb 

Today I am down to 164 lbs.  My goal was  to get  to get the weight off so that i could breath better and walk with out being of breath and for my back not to give out alot than my goal was to get into a size14 be fore a friend got married and the best goal was to go danceing    with my husband before i had surgery on my knee and of couse after the wedding witch was in august and i went dance with my husband for the frist time in 8 year and i did get into a size 14dress for the wedding now   today my goal is to get down150 lbs.and to perfence having to have knees replacement so early in my life  I was never a big person growing up.  It was after I had my girls and my hysterectomy that I put on the weight.  I have learned never to say never.  Even today, it gets hard for me because of my hearing and not being able to work out like I want to so I gress walking is better than northing and    not having the support I need from my surgery.  I thank God for the board post and my family.