So, I met my surgeon, Dr. Hamdi on January 14th, 2011. In a matter of 2 months I got through all of my tests, bloodwork, exams, etc and was scheduled on March 16th, 2011. I did it. I had RNY on the 16th, and asked my surgeon if I could go home the 17th, the next day.

Here I am 3 days post op. I'm feeling very mixed and emotional. I am happy I went through with the process but I'm also very nervous of complications, messing up, and of course the pain isn't helping. Sure, they have me on pain meds but I wish it didn't hurt so much.

As far as hunger is concerned, I'm getting small cravings here and there, and I am finding it difficult to get ALL my fluids in- but other than that I can tell already my stomach is much different than it used to be. 

I'm feeling very nervous and unsure. I'm hoping this feeling subsides. It's hard to imagine I actually followed through and the process has happened already. I suppose this is the hard part.

For the last three years I have been without health insurance. Once I graduated college, I lost the ability to stay with my Dads insurance plan and have been living without coverage. Now that that has been changed to coverage until I am 26 I am trying to make use of my coverage in applying for WLS. 

My previous PCP would not even discuss the option of WLS with me. I had mentioned it a few years back when I joined this site and she insisted that she was against the procedures associated with WLS and that I should, and could "do it myself". Once I received my coverage again I knew that I would not be returning to someone who didn't understand my need for the procedure. You see, my doctor never believed when I dieted. It's like she thought I was lying. I have tried everything. South Beach, Weight Watchers, Curves, Alli, Low Fat/Low Cal/Incessant Work Outs. Nothing worked past 30/40lbs lost. 

So today I met my new PCP. I immediately brought up the idea of surgery and she went along with me completely. She believed my efforts had failed, and I proved to her I had looked into what this process had in store for me. She set me up with a referral and I am meeting my Surgeon next week. I never in a million years thought I wouldn't have to fight to get understanding for this. My old Physician was so opinionated about it, and with my new doctor- she just understood that I have exercised every option and I feel my time is running out. I'm excited and nervous, but my new years resolution was to "followthrough". Not just this, but everything. I'm not going to rest until I have my surgery date penciled in, and my insurance company's approval. 

The only thing she mentioned in terms of concern, was obviously the potential failure rate. She said she only really knew of failure cases where the individuals undergoing the surgery were unfit for the procedure emotionally. She asked if I binge, or am an emotional eater- I'm not. I over eat because I'm hungry all the time. I could eat a full meal and feel unsatisfied as if I haven't had anything. It's uncomfortable and hard to ignore. It's not fun feeling like I am constantly starved. She assured me that this would fix that feeling and I would most likely get the results I am aiming for.

I'm ready. I have taken that first step. And next week is the second.