Stats:

Female
Age 30
BMI 38.4

Unlike most people I read, I was not big all my life, I was the opposite, I was thin most of my life. I got "chunky" around age 15 (25 pounds overweight) and stayed that way until about age 19/20 where I started to get "big". I blame most of this on the carreer path I took (Graphic Design), the computer is not your friend :-)

In school I was my heaviest (2001), perhaps 245 that is when the food-is-friend came into play and perhaps an addiction. I wasn't like this as a kid, emotional eating was never an issue with me until the 20's. I lost 50 pounds on my own, then as much as I worked out I just have not lost weight, I have been to an Endo, obgyn, pcp about why I have gained more than the next person when in reality I never ate THAT much to gain what I have. My thyroid is slightly off but synthroid never corrected my weight, I don't produce cortisol, that is the latest test that shows why I do not lose weight.

I know my diet is terrible and I don't work out as much since it seems like a non stop battle that you just get tired of fighting. So I hope with whatever surgery I do pick, I learn how to change my eating habits for good and even if I don't lose as fast as the next person for say; not producing cortisol, then I will take a few pounds less than average over nothing at all. I also would hope this helps my IBS, I see my gastro about this all on Wed. I am sure he will have me scoped to see what is going on first and then I am asking him about surgery and if I am ok to go through with whatever it is I pick.

Everyone says, this is so invasive, nobody can understand unless they have problem, and walk in your shoes. And I am tired of the struggle, and I know it isn't a fix but I sure as hell want a helping hand, and it might be rough but it is the end result that matter. I went through a breast reduction 6.5 months ago, 1600 grams removed total, double g to a d cup. That was a huge thing to do, and it is the most empowering thing I ever did. I don't see weight loss surgery like that though, for me it is more of a life saver, I don't have any health problems, just chronic knee pain in my right now but I can prevent health problems. I also have to say my life is on hold, I am not active due to the social anxiety that has built up in me since I gained more weight, I am a very confident and strong person though if that makes sense but I could be on say; the beach, and I am not. Living pretty much 5 minutes away from the beach, that doesn't make sense. So I want my life back and that is the bottom line.