ok so now I am 5 months out. I can start to see a difference in my face and upper chest area. i have lost a total of 130 LBS!!!! but i do not see it all yet. I definately do feel it though. I have been slacking on my protein and vitamins. I just HATE the taste of the protein but I also know that is not an option :*( so I will just have to woman up and drink it. My vitamins are lacking cuz I moved and havbe not been able to buy more or find mine. oh and I have yet to reschedule my last check up appointment which was sup[posed to be last week. I know i know I am bad. But I am getting back on track and at least I continue to exercise and drink water/crystal light. Ok tell ya more later
p. I am now in a 16/18 shirt and 22 pants down from a 34

ok i know men are not usually very emotionally intelligent and they tend to have a higher incidence of saying things before really thinking about them BUT my DH is so bad. He swears he is hilarious because he was looking at our wedding pics and he came to the conclusion that i look like his chubby chubby princess. I said watch it jerk! LOL I said why do you gotta mention my stats in there? so since I gave him a reaction he now has a whole little dance routine and a song that he busts into spontaneously just to get a rise out of me. I think I am going to have to resort to physical violence! LOL

You know what I love...that my hubby is wayyy hot. Seriously. He has a long rock star goatee and he is about 5'11 and he is a beautiful mix of mexican and indian. He has a gorgeous smile and his laugh makes me laugh. He is not only a hottie but he is one of the funniest ppl I know. He is disgusting but he is so damn funny I dont care. I do complain, but its just for laughs. He even terrorizes my mom. like when she is talking to me he will randomly yell out "Thats the word of the day!!" then start tickeling her and poking her you know just being a general annoyance LOL and he will do it sometimes like 3 times in 5 minutes. He has a 5 year old sense of humor and you cant help but laugh. Man I hope he never reads this or he will get an even bigger head than he already has (thats my little hydro baby!)

as i sit (crossing my legs) I was thinking about how we always say how ppl treat us like we are invisible when we are fat but its kinda the opposite I am no longer as much of a spectacle to be pointed at and whispered about. And I am pretty sure ppl soon might even stop wondering how me and my husband have sex??? I do wonder how long before I quit getting so defensive when ppl look at me or give compliments. Although I have to say my quick witted sarcasm keeps me entertained. Whoever said that sarcasm is a coping mechanism for ppl who dont know how to cope was a dumbass it just makes for a fun time. I had a fat angry teacher in college who used to always say that but I'm sure its because she had a severe superiority complex-oh and she wore shoes that were like 8 sizes too small so her hooves would bubble up on top. Ahhh there see how much better I feel...

I just recently discovered I can cross my legs and without having to use my hands. Before my legs were so edema'd that crossing them was not only impossible but very painful when I tried. Now I do it whenever I can. Oh and I also notice that when I cross my arms they lay way flatter against me i no longer feel like I am trying to intimidate ppl LOL.