during one shakedown i found a turd in a personal water bottle i have discovered many a container full of MOLDY urine items which would normally be for female use....but it was an all male unit and is anyone familiar with the bougie spirit called "pruno"? lol at least i have not had the pleasure of spying a "fi fi bag". I have busted up "trains" thats always good for your psyche. Yes I do infact LOVE my job. its rarely boring and when i dont feel like listening to negative comments or people trying to start problems, i merely dont look at them cuz all my inmates are deaf. Unfortunately when they dont want to "listen" to me, they too stop looking...asses

hey guys!!! damn i miss all my oh family. I have been moving three times in one year! i switched hospitals, boyfriends and cars. I even went down in sizes! I have been very blessed but also very stressed. I guess u could say i have a regular life right? lol.I have had a few wow moments too. Like one day i was talking to one of my inmates and she was descibing her sister to me and she said "she is built like you, she is not fat, just a little above average and she is also, very pretty." I was like "huh?" my whole fat little life i always heard "oh, i have a (insert random family memeber here) like you -very big but she has a pretty face".....jackass thats still NOT a compliment. But anyways and this one time (in band camp...) my mom and i were shopping and i saw these really cute pair of whit jeans but the biggest size they had was 14. Well i really wanted them so i took them just to see how much more i needed to lose to be able to grease up my fat arse and squeeze them on. Well when i put them on VIOLA! not only did they fit BUT i didnt have muffin top (although i must say the top is the best part of a muffin right?). I was so excited i modeled them for my mom. I couldnt believe i have gone from a 34 to a 14. I still have psycho issues with male attention though. I have just learned how to deal with it better. It still makes me uneasy and self concious I just have to keep reminding myself its a positive thing and not to get defensive. Ok well i huess i am done for now but please write me sometime guys i miss hearing from you!