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Things have been going pretty well . I did get sick a few times lately.Once on Friday night.I woke up saturday with pain on my left side and thought I might have hurt something. Kind of near my port area. I laid around Saturday, Sunday and Monday and at this point though that it might be an ovary thing then I put the heating pad on and I noticed I moved ALOT of gas. Like the kind I had after surgery. Today I was a little tender but nothing like the last few days! I had made a gyno appt but cancelled when I got up this am and felt better. Not sure what it was but am figuring in on the whole trapped gas thing....
I am always so worried that I am or have hurt something with this band. I am a worry wart by nature so it is natural for me but I am obssessed about it sometimes! I dunno I guess I am just waiting for the curtain to fall on this whole deal.There is no way I am gonna really , actually, be thin!!!! That is my mindset! URGHHHH  I hate that. I need to work on positive thinking.Big time!
i think that is why I am not more excited about my weight loss so far . I am scared it is not real or is not going to last.:( 
I drive my hubby crazy lol with all my "head drama". lol  
So that is my thing I am going to try to work on being more positive ! =)

Things are going well I got my 3rd fill on Friday and with this one I can definitely feel some added restriction . I am not really hungry very often at all and it only takes a little to fill me up. I am happy with my restriction at this point and am hoping that I will lose a little more consistently and quicker. Always wanting things yesterday . LOL 
The hubby's class reunion is next month and I would like to be down by 50 lbs by then. I have like 7 more lbs to go ! It is a little goal of mine.=)  I am looking forward to buying me something cute to wear .
Today I went to get dressed and put on a pair of capris I have not been able to wear in years! It felt really good to be able to do that. 

Things are going pretty well I am puttering along and seem to be getting along with my band alot better now. I still have to remind myself to eat slowly and small bites but I have a little better hand on it now.Not perfect but better.:)  I get my 3rd fill this friday ! YAY !!!! I am down 43 lbs and cannot wait to keep shrinking. My clothes are starting to get too big and that is a good thing!  I do hate to see some of my good things go! I have some really cute things that I loved but I know in the long run there will be even cuter things in even smaller sizes out there for me!  I have been kinda tight lately but it has been SO humid here the past few weeks ! URGHHHHHH ....   I had not noticed it bothering me before but the past week or so it has.It is my TOM as well so who knows could be that.
I made a post about how things have kinda changed for me lately thanks to the band....I think anyways!
* I am more aware of my body now seemingly than before.Almost a little more self concious now than when I was bigger.(WEIRD)
* I am going crazy now with the whole girly thing....gotta keep the nails painted and the tan on and all moisturized and shaved and smelling good.lol
* I wear my earrings almost everyday now!
Lots of little things like these.... I guess I kind of feel like I am worth it now .I never thought it was worth the trouble before now I kinda do. I think I am getting a little better at being good to myself  and feel....well.... worth it!