It has been almost 5 1/2 months since I had surgery, and as of this am, I have lost 100.lbs. It is so amazing, that I can hardly believe it.

In an earlier post I wrote about my friend that isn't talking to me. Well nothing has changed there, Oh well. Her loss. Someone said to me the other day that she is probably loosing weight, and will talk to me then...Maybe. If it motivates her, and she gets to a happy place, then good for her.

Before surgery everthing I wore was a 3x or bigger. I wore like a 26-28, sometimes a 30. Well yesterday I had on a pair of sweatpants that were size large, and a sweatshirt that was a medium. When I bought them I couldn't find a large top, and bought the medium thinking there was no way it would fit...Well It was snug at first, but fits good now...I am still amazed.

Oh and I went for a walk with my kids the other night, and my son had me jogging. It was so funny. He is such a motivater. Every time I wanted to stop he would say "don't stop mom, you are almost there, you can do it." Oh it was soooo wonderful.

Well thats all for now...I hope everyone is feeling blessed and has a wonderful day.

My friend of 18 years is pissed at me for having surgery, and doesn't want to know how much I have lost. At least that is what her sister told my husband. I am like WTF. I don't need her to be happy for me, or support me, or even aknowledge what I have done...but to be pissed at me..come on..And today is my birthday, and I keep thinking about this shit..Oh well. I made a life changing decision that I don't regret in the least, and if she can't talk to me, or be my friend anymore then that is on her. I haven't changed..not inside..not at all. I had plenty of self esteem while I was fat, and the only thing that has changed about me is the way I look...and I still weight at this point about 60 lbs more than I did when I first met her and we became friends. Jealousy really is a bitch huh? And don't get me wrong...I am jealous of some people/sometimes too, but I don't let that jealousy turn into anything else...oh well.

Its funny how even on a support website you find haters...unbelievable. We should all be supporting each other in our journies no matter what route we took to get there. 
Who cares who had what surgery and why. Personally I think that a lot (and I didn't say all) of people only have the DS surgery so they can still eat the way they have always eaten. Good, great for you. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to leave all that behind, so I didn't choose that surgery. I wanted to be as normal as possible after surgery, and at only three months out, I feel normal, different but normal. Different because now I don't finish every last morsel, but actually leave food on the plate....like normal people. Do I feel strange, or deprived in any way....HELL NO..I do not. I made my decision, and I am happy with it. What the DS people say doesn't bother me...but...there are some people who are very sensitive, and their spirit has been broken, and the last thing they need is a bunch of "obviously unhappy with their own lives" bitches making them feel worse. But Im sure it will never end. It is so hard to not post back and add fuel to the fire when they are so cruel and lieing to boot, but maybe if no one posted back they would eventually give up.

I hope everyone had a great new years. Mine was pretty uneventful as usual. Home with the hubby and kids, safe, just the way I like it. I fell asleep around 9pm for like a 1/2 hour and woke up with my ear all clogged up. Hubby said it was wax (as if...) so it stayed that way through the next day, then on the 2nd, I went to the Dr. and it wasn't wax. I had ear infections in both ears. It is just now starting to open up. I have to take an antibiotic twice a day, and it tastes gross...I have been mixing it in a spoonfull of yogurt, and practically sticking the spoon down my throat and I can still taste it yuck...I get up extra early and cook and egg and corn beef hash every moring, since I have to eat when I take the pill, and I have so much trouble getting all my liquid in, that I need to start early...lol
I am soooo glad I did this though..Every day I feel and look better and better. This year really is a new year for me...I hope it is a new year for all of you also.

I am so excited about Christmas this year (as usual) and I can't believe that I have lost 60 lbs. I am so excited about a lot of things now..I can't wait for summer to go swimming with my kids (like I always have, but less self concious and tired) we made sugar cookies and a gingerbread house today. I kept licking the icing off of my fingers..after I did that about 4 times I realized what I was doing. I had to litterally make a concious effort to stop..it was maddening...ugggg..lol
Well I hope that everyone has the merriest Christmas ever..