7/7/06 - Weighing in @ 181. Celebrated Independence Day with my Cousin, Jesus. He arrived from Cuba by way of Venezuela on 5/24 and I watched him this week as independence day took on a new meaning in our house. Had a great time @ the beach watching the fireworks.
7/20/2006 - Struggling with stomach issues since last thursday. I'm back on previsaid. On top it looks like I had a sinus infection. My bach continues to ache and I've mentioned it to my pcp who said if this continues he will be sending me for physical therapy to see if it helps. I'm still weighing in @ 177lbs. Looks like I may have hit a wall of sorts. I'm getting alot of compliments lately and I smile graciously, however, I don't feel right. I'm loading some pictures from this past Sat (7/15) I went to miami for the Gloria Estefan ZO summer concert series, a benefit for Alonzo Mourning foundation. The concert was great, I had an opportunity to meet up with Gloria after the concert, but ended up going back to the hotel because I didn't feel well. In all the years I've had a chance to meet up with Gloria, I've never passed it up. THAT's HOW BAD I WAS FEELING!!!!
7/21/06 - Today I stumbled on a buddhist saying and I truly feel it's part of my new belief system...and so I share....
"Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others."
7/26/06 - Well Back to the hospital - I saw one of Dr Rosenthal's associates Dr Laler and he sent me back for an upper GI. He feels I may had developed more strictures as well as a possible bowel obstruction. 10 mins after drinking that nasty stuff. I was in the can. Spent most of the drive back home stopping @ every rest stop between Sunrise and Naples. I ended up sleeping in the bathroom because the pains in my belly were so bad. THIS is NOT for the FAINT of HEART! But damn it, janet, I will be ok.... this is just a bump of sorts. This morning I had some oatmeal and it stayed. I'm dehydrated, so I'm trying to drink ask much as I can tolerate. I just wished the dr's office would call me back already. I'm looking forward to visiting Disney this weekend. I just hope I'm feeling ok to ride the rides. It's my little gold ring @ the end of my rope. I've got to keep reaching for it. SP thinks I'm crazy.
07/30/2006 - 8 month - this is so incredible. To say I'm 8 months post op and weighing in @ 175 lbs. Thank you once again, God for your protection and your support. Yes, as you read above you'll note that I have endured my share of stuff, but then again life is about "stuff" isn't it? I had a great time in Orlando this weekend - rode on rides like a little kid. I went to the water park in my bathing suit and had fun without being self-concious. My friends, Debbie and Gary and their kids were really happy to see me and we had a nice time together. I got to visit with my friend Maribel who knows me better than I know myself sometimes. We had a nice dinner and she just gushed about the new me. I just want to be me and I hope that I am not changing in the process. Maribel says I looked like I did when we were kids. Hell I suddenly feel like a kid with all the things available to me. I was using the BMI calculator and I am 1 lbs away from being "NORMAL" weight. This caused me to cry because I have never been "NORMAL" - but then again those who know me, know this! Going to the PCP on Wed to have blood workup - but I haven't been on meds (diabetic, bl, cholestorol, etc) since May.
8/7/06 - I went shopping yesterday - look what I got - a size 10 2 piece bathing suit. I know concedited right. HELL YEAH! I worked hard @ this and I want to be able to do everything other women my ago do and wear!
August 15th, 2006 - I'm a TIA!!!!! My brother and his partner became parents today. Sophia Victoria was born this morning! I can't wait to meet her. I'm thrilled for my guys and wish them a lifetime of happiness and unconditional love. I'll be visiting Philly @ the end of the month and will get a chance to meet my little niece. I'm so excited!
August 21, 2006 - I had a blast this weekend @ the Obesity Help weight loss conference held at the Westin Hotel in Fort Lauderdale. I met many inspiring pre/post op folks and was very impressed with the panel of speakers, especially with Lauarlyn Bellamy and Dr Shuster. Monica is an incredible motivator - as well as funny. I had the opportunity to participate in a Fashion show and wore one of my last BIG dresses and then I "stripped" and the dress fell to the ground and out stepped the new me in a sharp turquoise golf outfit. The crowd went wild!!!!
I weighed in this morning and I am happy to report that I am now weighing in @ 169lbs. Life's a little stressful but I am trying my best to keep eating healthy and drinking my water - all 8 glasses a day....For those of you reading my profile - this is said over and over everywhere - FOR A REASON. It is a must do and there's no negotiating this option.
8/29/2006 - OK so I'm stressed. Hurricane shutters are up and we're on the look out for hurricane Ernesto. Damn latin men - always causing trouble. I've got ,my Kashi crunch to help me through the boring times to come and I vow not to stress eat. I'm happy to say I'm weighing in @ 167 and if the storm isn't supper bad then I am flying home (PHILLY) on Thursday to see my new neice, SOPHIA VICTORIA..... and to see friends and family. Tomorrow marks my 9 month anniversary and as of today I have lost 181lbs.
9/11/2006 - Sad for 2 reasons - the 5th anniversary of the Twin towers terror day and I fell down a flight of stairs @ my brother's home last night. I am hurting so bad. I missed my flight home and I'm in bed @ his house. My back is out of wack and my right arm is hurting beyond words. It could have been worse, mins before I told my brother to be careful with the stairs and the baby. OUCH....
09/15/2006 - Ok so I'm back home in Florida and I went to see my Ortho who has determinded that I have a broken collar bone, torn rotator cuff and a dislocated arm. OUCH!!!! On the plus side I weighed in @ 165. I'm 9 and 1/2 month out and feeling so much more improved. I'm eating better and able to eat a larger variety of food. SP made Thai for dinner tonight and it sat well. Here I thought that spicy food wouldn't agree with me but I was fine.
9/18/2006 - ok so tonight I had a WOW moment - weird as it may be. I went to have an MRI done on my arm and I was dreading it because I'm claustophobic - turns out losing 186 lbs gives you a little more room to enter the tiny washing machine called the MRI unit. No that's not the WOW moment - the WOW moment and I know this is going to sound silly was when I was completing the personal documents and I had to write in my current weight. 162lbs... it took my breath away. It was so official. Ok - it's late I;m on darvocet and I'm in pain. SP wants to tuck me in....he-he-he-he-he....nighters.
09/24/2006 - MAJOR FRIGHTING MOMENT!!!!!
First let me say - if you have had or will be having any type of WLS LISTEN TO YOUR BODY!!!!!
I ended up hospitalized with Septesemia (blood poisoning) that came from Cellulitis (staph infection of the skin) around my navel. This past Wed night while dressing for bed, I had to call Roger because I was bleeding from my naval. It's late and I ended up at North Collier Hospital's ER where they did a CTsan and put me on major antibiotic intravenously. While they released me at 4 am they suggested I contact Dr Rosenthal for follow up, which I did Thursday and was instructed to get right over. (Mind you I have an office to run, and I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place) After opening up the office and taking care of a few administrative duties, I drove over to Weston (1.5 hours) and was immediately admitted - Rosenthal had sent orders to the ER and one of his fellows met me there. I was put on 2 different types of Antibotics and kept in the hospital until late Friday night. I'm now home and on Levequin for the next 10 days. I feel like I'm fitghing a bad flu - I go into cold sweats and chills every hour or so. My Navel is still oozing pus and it stinks. I ache all over.
The reason I stated "listen to your body" is because by themselves the following were nothing in the eyes of my dr's however, when you put the systoms together it pointed right @ the Cellulitis.
Cold hands and feet, unexplained cold sweat and chills, feeling tired. (this had been going on since April) Finally the festering abcess and the smell that actually started 2 days before the oozing.
09/26/06 - It's 2:00 and I can't sleep, I'm in a cold sweat and I took my temp. It's 95.1. My body is drenched and I ache all over. I'm praying to God for help. I'm in a state of desperation right now at the way I am feeling. My heart is racing and I am scared. God, please help me.
9/26/06 - I went for further consult and I am now being scheduled for removal of my lymph nodes on Thursday. Dr is trying to rule out Lymphoma -but he did find the lymph nodes in my groin to be hard and these drenching sweats.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
A thought - In the course of my recovery - whenever I discuss the setbacks, I've referred to them as BUMPS in my road to recovery......remind me to call G-dOT - my highway is full of bumps and potholes right now and I need a major dose of his spirit to heal me and fill those potholes. Alas - whenever I'm fearful, I'm @ my most humorous.
9/28/2006 - I had my left lymph node removed yesterday and my surgeon is sending it out to be biopsied to rule out Lymphoma. I'm home recovering - the incision sight throbs and I have pain killers but I hate the constant state of sedation that it leaves me in. The hospital called this morning and I won't have an answer until monday. Just what I need a long weekend to ponder.....
9/30/2006 - Today is my 10 month anniversary. I am weighing 164 lbs. Looks like I've put on 2 lbs - it could be from all the IVs because certainly it's not from eating - I haven't had an appetite for days but force myself to drink my Isapure shakes to keep up my energy. I showered this morning and it felt good. I have to make an appt to see the Dr Lamon to remove the stitches from my groin for wed. I also have to set up my rehab schedule for the rotator cuff tear. September has been a rough month for me - I'm down but not out!!!!! I just wish I didn't feel so damn tired and these sweats would go away. Took my temp @ 8:30 and it's 101.3 yet I am freezing...