B is for blessings. count them all up in your life and appriciate what you have. if you are feeling down or lost. count blessings. you will realize how mnay special people God has given you and how many talents you have. You are  blessed.Blessing 1 a husband who loves and supports me through everything and anything. Blessing 2 a mother who loves me even though she know my faults. Blessing 3, SaraRose I could not be more proud of one of my children. You are me but so much more and so incredible. Blessing 4, My son Seth I could not ask for a more adoring son. Blessing 5, My daughter Summer. Your sweetness lights up my life on a regular basis. Blessing 6 My son Spencer. You make me laugh and smile and mad all at the same time. You are a neat kid and keep me always guessing what will come next. Blessing 7, Friends that are truer beyond compare. I know I can  call on any of you. for whatever need I have and you will be there right by my side or kicking my butt whatever it may be that I need! Blessings in my life go on and on. Those are the important big ones.

I am up because my poor husband is sick and coughing. I am afriad I may be coming down with it too.:( i am hoping not. I am a little over 24 hours from surgery. I am excited and scared. Really scared. I think I have gone through every guilt I know today.Some guilts I didn't even know I carried.


 

OK well here I go. I have nearly finished the "bariatric path way". I have tricare and that is through madigan Army Medical Hospital.  I had to go to 2 nutrition classes, a goal setting class, a stress management class, have pschyatric testing and an evaluation. Now I get to meet with my surgeon. The ninth of June. Wow. I am scared, excited, happy and aprehensive. I am 40 this year. I just had my birthday. I am trying to figure out what i want to call my surgery day. IO feel it is like being born again from my body. We will see where my outlook puts me after surgery! i have made friends doing the pathway. I hope we can support each other through the  incredible journey we are about to embark on.

A little bit about myself. I am a mother of 4 beautiful children. Ages 17, 15, 13 and 11. I am married to a dear sweet man whom I adore. I have a family home childcare business. I also am an independant consultant for close to my heart and I teach scrapbooking and card making.I want  to live a full life to spend with all the wonderful people in my world.Appearently My dear daughter doesn' t think i should share my information. so......i think i will continue the blog as long as I am comfortable with it.

I had made a commitment to exercise in June. That went well. Until recently I took on watching night time kids and sabotaged myself. I could no longer work out liek I was doing. This week back to the grindstone no matter. I have given my daycare family notice so that they will move on and I can have my time to myself. The best thing  I ever did for myself was to join the gym and it has a pool!