Well I am leaving to go home to Kansas for a week friday.  I am so excited it has been a couple of years since I have been home.  My sister and neice is coming also so the whole family will be together.  I am excited to see my moms reaction when she see my weight loss. The last time she visited she express great concern for my health being so over weight.  I think she will be overjoyed.  Well my hair has fallen out it is awful.  It is so thin that I have put  a weave in my hair and I hate weave.  The doctors office told me that It will grow back just to make sure that I am getting enough protein and taking biotin.  I aint gonna worry to much about it as long as there are wigs I will be fine.  Today is a good day Will and I went to dinner at chillis it seems that lately we are really drinking alot.  With all the things I have heard about people becoming alcholoics after this surgery I am parionoid about this.  I probably overreacting but I don't need any new addictions.  But they have such good margaritas and they don't make me dump. That is saying some thing because the least amount of sugar makes me sick and dump.  Well this weekend was probably one of the best I have had in a long time.  My play mom Charlene got married and her family were in town. We all had a blast together.  My good friend Michelle who also had the surgery looked drop dead gorgeous!  I am so so proud of her she was just glowing.  I just thank God so much for this happiness that I have in my heart right now.  Well that is all for now talk to you all soon.

Hey my peeps,
Well just a quick update on me and what is new in life.  I have been asked to start birth control by my doctor.  Before WLS I did not ovulate therefore was never a need.   Now that I have lost weight my cycles are starting to happen and I am ovulating.  This might sound stupied to alot of people but I am so glad.  You don't know how abnormal you feel to be different then other women.  It is so reassuring to now that it is possible for me to get pregnant.  Of course we are taking every measure to ensure I don't until my 18 months are up for baby sake.  I have so desired to be a mother and never thought it would be possible.  Now it is a very good possibility that is so special to me.  So to all of you ladies who have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome out there be encouraged.  There is hope after all, there is a silver lineing.

So I am really getting some big reactions lately.  People I have not seen in a while are like what is really going on.  I sent my cousin a pic tonight and she bout fell out the chair LOL!   Then there are the other reactions you may not be prepared for.  Like a old coworker of mine who said you look sooo much better now.  I know you have to be more happy with your self.  Now What she said is true but it made me realize how unattractive she felt I was.  It made me think how many and what other people who looked at me everyday felt the same as her.  OH THE HELL WELL!!  I am loving life and feeling great now and that is what matters to me.

I am now below my target weight I weigh 296 as of today!  I am just feeling awsome and just so very blessed.  My honey hurt his wrist and had to take off from work today.  We have been just enjoying each others company all day it has been so nice.  We are getting a dog here soon his name is Buddy he is an english bulldog.  Believe you me Buddy is going to be spoiled rotten.  I am just so blessed to have people in my life true friends that are so loving and supportive.  One of my good friends Michelle and her husband Dave is the ones who hooked us up with the dog.  Michelle also has had WLS and she is doing amazing and looking beautiful.  Our spirtual mom is getting married on May 24th and I am so excited I don't know what to do. Then ontop of that I am going home the end of the month to see my family in Kansas.  So yes I am feeling realy blessed.  By the way we saw that crazy doctor this weekend at the movies and my husband looked at him like he wanted to whoop his ***.  We did'nt we took the high road and left it alone for God to handle.

Well I am almost there one pound away from my goal.  I am so happy nothing could upset me.  I have  not been under three hundred punds in 9 years.  I feel so beautiful I am crying right now and so many emotions is taking over me.  I looked in the mirror today and could see the woman that I knew was inside me all along.  I am so blessed to of had this surgery and to be able to have a support system out of this world.  I went through my closet today and tried on every piece of clothing I owned.  I have over 7 trash bags of clothes to give away to my best girlfriend.  I have now about 8 shirts and 6 pair of pants.  I don't know what to do about buying clothes because they aint gonna last long.  Well I just wanted to share my happiness with you all. Be Blessed