Paper work should be in the mail.  I left it with my PcP to have her sign it and I left a post-it saying if she could drop it in the mail wonderful if not call me and I will come pick it up.  I put enough postage on it to send it around the world but I didn't want to have it sent back to me.

I wonder what all I'm going to need.  Now I wait.. waiting is the suck.

I swear every other word out of my mouth is about what will happen...  I think Caleb is about to poke my eye out.  I guess I'm just so excited at the prospect of getting my health in order I can hardly hold the thought in.

I knew when my friend had it done I wanted it to but I knew at that time in my life I was not ready.  I lied to myself saying "Oh I can lose this weight"  It just takes hard work and eatting right... ummm sure it does... Well it takes more then that and I believe truly and firmly that this is the tool that will help me to take control of my health and life!

I didn't want to go I thought everyone would be looking at me thinking "What is she doing here, she doesn't deserve this."  Then I remembered where I was going and I went. I'm glad I went.  I have my paper work filled out and I will be seeing my Dr on Wed. in the hopes of getting her to sign it so that I can mail it off.