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on November 8, 2007 8:19 am
11/8/07:
SARCOIDOSIS:
I'm scared to make this excuse because I don't know if it's just an excuse or if it really is too painful to go to the gym... But my legs, arms, head, neck they all hurt, and I think it's a bout of this sarcoidosis. I'm so exhausted... I'm going to try to go to the gym today, atleast to do stretching, maybe some pilates, that always helps with the pain.
I think it's hard to face that you have a disease, that is trying to take over your body, for so long I've been told I was just lazy and I didn't have the "want". and maybe they were right
FOOD ADDICTION
I was so sick of hearing people, say to use my willpower, willpower doesn't exsist when your addicted to something. That addiction takes over all aspects of my life, and that addiction is food. I hate food, but I need food to ease all of my fears, emotions, happiness, nervousness, you name it. But now at 218 pounds, and back problems, and muscle aches, food is the demon that brought me here. So with a lot of help, and self realization I'm on my way...
My first step to recovery is to stop weighing myself 8 times day, no joke. You know sometimes, it actually changes, if I take off my shirt, or my hair tie, I might actually go down .1 pounds.. I'm so obsessed, and it's insane....
The definition of Disease is: an impairment of health or a condition of abnormal functioning
and well, I am functioning abnormally and I sure do have an impairment or 10 in my health, so I have realized, that yes, Compulsive overeating is a disease, and I Crystal, am a compulsive overeater...
Today I woke up, and I'm not going to weigh myself 10 times, although, I have to admit, I did weigh myself 1 last time this morning, first thing when I woke up. Then I went and I had some Cinamon toast crunch cereal, there was one bowl left, and I had it, and it made me angry, because last night, after my OA meeting, I said, this is it, no more "one more days" this is it. The end, I'm DONE! So my journey truly begins here...
As far as weight loss goals, I'm not sure, first I have to overcome, this obsession with sandwiches, and potato chips...It's scares me, giving up something I love so much. It's like love, sometimes it hurts you, but you cant' just give it up. You can't turn your back on something you've loved for 28 years!!! . And that is it. It's not a game anymore for me. I'm so done!!!!!!!!!
1 comment | Click here to leave a comment.SARCOIDOSIS:
I'm scared to make this excuse because I don't know if it's just an excuse or if it really is too painful to go to the gym... But my legs, arms, head, neck they all hurt, and I think it's a bout of this sarcoidosis. I'm so exhausted... I'm going to try to go to the gym today, atleast to do stretching, maybe some pilates, that always helps with the pain.
I think it's hard to face that you have a disease, that is trying to take over your body, for so long I've been told I was just lazy and I didn't have the "want". and maybe they were right
FOOD ADDICTION
I was so sick of hearing people, say to use my willpower, willpower doesn't exsist when your addicted to something. That addiction takes over all aspects of my life, and that addiction is food. I hate food, but I need food to ease all of my fears, emotions, happiness, nervousness, you name it. But now at 218 pounds, and back problems, and muscle aches, food is the demon that brought me here. So with a lot of help, and self realization I'm on my way...
My first step to recovery is to stop weighing myself 8 times day, no joke. You know sometimes, it actually changes, if I take off my shirt, or my hair tie, I might actually go down .1 pounds.. I'm so obsessed, and it's insane....
The definition of Disease is: an impairment of health or a condition of abnormal functioning
and well, I am functioning abnormally and I sure do have an impairment or 10 in my health, so I have realized, that yes, Compulsive overeating is a disease, and I Crystal, am a compulsive overeater...
Today I woke up, and I'm not going to weigh myself 10 times, although, I have to admit, I did weigh myself 1 last time this morning, first thing when I woke up. Then I went and I had some Cinamon toast crunch cereal, there was one bowl left, and I had it, and it made me angry, because last night, after my OA meeting, I said, this is it, no more "one more days" this is it. The end, I'm DONE! So my journey truly begins here...
As far as weight loss goals, I'm not sure, first I have to overcome, this obsession with sandwiches, and potato chips...It's scares me, giving up something I love so much. It's like love, sometimes it hurts you, but you cant' just give it up. You can't turn your back on something you've loved for 28 years!!! . And that is it. It's not a game anymore for me. I'm so done!!!!!!!!!
