To cross my legs like a lady !

Once again, I failed to keep my profile updated. Just seems like now that I have all this energy I have something else, something better to do ! But I do know that when I started this process and even still, I search through profiles for ideas, suggestions, just inspiration and I truly hope that someday my profile will do the same to others! So lets go back to day of surgery. Well the "cleaning out" of the system sucks ! LOL But once over that the nerves kicked in, didn't get too much sleep. Was at the hospital bright and early. The nurse was so sweet, she sang "itsy bitsy teeny weeny yellow polka dot bikini" while being wheeled to pre-op. The last thing I remember is the drug dr telling me a joke. I had told him I was nervous (they were wheeling me into surgery) and he said he was going to give me something to relax me, and I was out ! I was groggy for quite sometime waking up but not too much pain. Altho I did use the pain button and wish I wouldn't have. For some reason the pain meds in that made me so sick and I was having the dry heaves just horrible ! They finally gave me something liquid I could drink and I felt so much better. Was walking around couple hours after surgery, nothing major but by the next day I was walking about once an hour. I was really surprised at how well I felt. and no complications ! Went home 2 days after, things were a little rough. Pain was controllable just the darn j-tube was annoying ! You can see my progress weight wise above. By week 2, my "head hunger" kicked into full gear and it was hard ! omgosh very hard. I did it, made it through. I had my first wow moment at 5 weeks out, I CAN CROSS MY LEGS ! What a terrific feeling and even better, the next week I went from a size XXL to XL ! I am down from a 22 to 18. I have energy that I never thought I would have. I feel great about myself and don't regret this surgery for one single minute ! I am officially 7 weeks out down 39 lbs ! I don't ever feel hungry infact I have to force myself to eat. I do have trouble getting in my protein and water but I am a work in progress. Whenever I need to eat, I eat pure protein and then water water water. If there is one thing I have learned it's that YOU CAN DO IT ! I CAN DO IT ! It doesn't matter what others say or do, it's what matters inside of you, put your mind to it and it WILL happen ! Advice, suggestions, examples are all wonderful and needed but it comes right down to you being responsible for you. Do not  be afraid to put things in Gods hands. Thank you God for all the blessings you have brought into my life, including this WLS journey !

I promised myself that I would update this almost everyday but I have really been slacking. So many things have happened tho. Had my sleep study test, FINALLY. Have mild sleep apnea, they mainly just wanna make sure I have a c-pap during surgery. Of course because my #'s are low my insurance won't cover it so they want me to rent one, still expensive. My uncle doesn't use his anymore so I am going to just use his, save some money. Okay during all this commotion money hasn't gotten tight so I had to go back to work. I went back in to cosmetology which I love but knew it would be difficult to get a job so close to having surgery. So I didn't tell my boss, then I got the date and had no choice. She was awesome ! She said she'd work it out and I would still have my job when I get back. WOOHOO. So work is going good. Lets see what else? Oh geezsh I think I drove Mary Kay crazy calling everyday, sometimes twice, to get a date. But I need to get over that feeling because I am paying them, so to speak.  APRIL 30th is the first day of the rest of my life !  Final things to do before surgery, LOTS. I need to get myself more mentally prepared. I am seriously concerned about my eating habits. I am hoping and have been told that they will just change and then I just don't let it get back that way. I am thinking that once I start losing the weight, wearing cute clothes and feeling "sexy" again.... food won't even be in my mind ! I need to get a couple things to stock up on the house. Start major cleaning so I won't be worried about that and thats about it. I start my high protein diet on April 15th. Trying to start that now so it won't be as hard come the 15th.

My next step was to meet with the Sleep Dr and that was to be done at the beginning of January, well things were crazy and I missed my appt. I rescheduled my appt for begining of Feb, but this time I completely forgot about it ! So Angie called from Dr Nizzi's office and said that the sleep Dr. wouldn't take me as a patient anymore since I missed 2 appts. I completely understand it was my stupidity but it was an accident.  So I immediately felt stupid and embarassed. Now I had to see a new Dr, made sure I didn't forget it and he scheduled me to have the sleep study done last night (2/28). I get there and wait 45 min and noone showed up! I was so upset but deep down I am thinking I deserve this because of missing those other appts. When I finally reached someone they told me they rescheduled my appt for 3/18 but forgot to inform me. I was ticked but again, I deserve it. But I started feeling selfish because now I have to wait another 3 weeks to have the test and then it'll be even longer to have my surgery. So I ended up switching where I would have the test done, it'll be in Grayling (30 min from here) on this sunday ! So I guess it'll all worked out. Still could kick myself tho, if I would have done the first sleep Dr. appts, I would probably be having my surgery right now ! So now the waiting continues. I haven't posted in awhile, been just kinda lazy and I wish I could snap out of it ! It's just so depressing and I hate it. But since my last post I did have my endoscopy done and was so scared but holy moly it was a breeze ! I don't remember a thing and being knocked out was kinda weird (well loupy but ended up falling asleep). My mom and her friend Barb took me and we ate at Olive Garden after (my favorite place). Thats about it..... I will update after Sunday !