To be a normal size by my 40th Birthday May 2008

So I was 0.8 pounds away from 100 pounds lost this past Monday - April 21, 2008 my eight month surgery anniversary! I am very excited to be so close, I weighed 180.4 on my new Weight Watchers scale. I used my Mom's over the weekend at the farm, her scale always has my weight several pounds less than my home scale. So I decided it was time to purchase a scale that measure onces as well as pounds. I now float between 180 to 184 pounds which is less than last month from 190 to 186. I will take what I can.
I am still waiting on the job offer. I did find out that I am being looked at to interview for another position in Human Resources as a Training Leadership position. I would be holding leadership classes for managers and senior staff within my company. I would love that job, I love public speaking, I am right at home in front of a crowd, the bigger the better. I swear sometimes I feel more at home in front of the crowd than in the crowd.
I have been out side riding my bike the last few days. It feels great to be outside now that it is spring.

No I haven't heard about the job yet, I really have no ideal what the delay is about. The only thing I know is that the Director said the position wouldn't be changed until early May 08. I just hope they aren't waiting until early May to decide whom they will give the position too! It is frustrated to say the least. I really want this job, I have been self talking myself in circle about keeping things positive, they yes they realize I will do a great job, but they want to hold the decision to the last minute to make certain they make the right decision. In my favor, or so my prayers have been going.
I have had to go back to the basic with my weight loss. I had one of those AHA moments the other day when I sit and thought about what I had been eating, and realized that having a tiny stomach wasn't really fixing anything it was just making my efforts at watching and counting my calories more effective. That just having the tiny stomach wasn't going to make everything all better! That was one of those, oh shit, you better really think about everything you are doing moments, and stop screwing around. My best friends keeps telling me "you look great how you are, don't worry about losing anymore. Ugh, I can't make her understand that I am in this for the long haul. That I want to be complete healthy and back to my normal (is any one normal really LOL:) size before my world twisted out of control in my early twenty's. So I feel really good about counting calories, watching every bite and being in control of the scale as it starts to go down again. I FEEL GOOD.
How are you doing? I had a really bad dream last night about losing a pregnancy, it was bloody, and scared me to death. I was really young, it gives me the creeps. So I am trying to move through my day and ignore the odd thoughts about my dreams. I am off tomorrow watching my little boy for the day - horray, we will have a good time.