ObesityHelp

OK. I need a fill. I acknowledge that. I'm living fill-free....and I've sort of plateaued around 230 pounds. Now, for a girl who weighed 297...that's not that bad. That's 67 pounds off..which haven't come back in a year with no fill...even though I've been eating a lot of crap. Thing is, I liked weighing less...like I did with my last fill. So, I really need to either find a local fill doc (pain...) or go back to Mexico and see Dr. Rumbaut (bigger pain with a 4 month old baby.) Hmmm.

The strange thing is... instead of spending $300 or so on a local fill or $600 or so on a trip to Mexico...what did I do??? First, I bought one week of NutriSystem's Nourish foods for $80.00 or so. Tasted OK...but ohmigod the portions are small. The only way they'd satisfy me is with is with a fill. Then, I ordered Weight Watchers At Home Deluxe (of course) kit for $125.00. (If you're playing along at home...that's $205.00 so far). Now it hasn't even arrived yet, but I'm kicking myself because in the 8 million other times I've gone on Weight Watchers, I've never ever been able to stick to it. So...whyyyyy don't I just book a fill?? Why??

Well, for one thing, I have to go through mouring for food again. There's a very big part of me (no pun intended) who is enjoying being able to eat as much as I want. There's a very big part of me who doesn't want to go back to ordering kiddie sizes, and not finishing them. Being full on a cup of soup, etc. BUT... there's even a bigger part of me who hates that I'm back in my old habits. So... probably in the next week or so, I'll start to research some fill docs. Wish me luck. :D